Being born in a Christian family is equally hard that not to be Christian and start believing in God. The fact that your parents are Christians and they have taught you in the way of the Lord it does not mean that your path will be perfect and easy. In my case; I thought that being Christian since I was born it does not make me stumble too many times, and believe in that has caused me so many problems and pain. The truth is… God demands of us a sincere commitment and the problem is when we do not accept that commitment with him. Acceptance is the first step to begin to direct our lifes, accepting allows us to see a much clearer reality.
I never liked to admit that God has given me beautiful and amazing talents and virtues and I have always brought to the fore my shortcomings, and the reality is that all I did was feel sorry for myself. And this is the first mistake, because acceptance is not synonymous with resignation, it does not mean that we should feel completely comfortable with them, acceptance means a clearer reality that we can grasp and replace it with something better, acceptance is what leads us of a “that is me” to “I am more than that”…
When I started college I found myself in the same world but it was crueler than mine. These were exactly the same things I used to do but they were at their real version. And I realized how distorted was my identity and when I met so many beautiful people I felt so angry about not being able to help them, I wondered so many times –and I still with this–: how people cannot understand that God created them and he loves them? God created us, and he gives us his infinite love for us, his children. And his love is more than enough to accept our reality and understand that we are not perfect here and we must work it... with God. Acceptance is completely subject to God and it is accompanied with an incredible humility that allows us to surrender to him so HE CAN work in us.
Many people –including us– is too afraid of what others think of them, and they see their reflection in the mirror as an ugly duckling, feeling miserable and rejected. We have not understood yet what fear does in us, fear LURES, it takes us strength and weakens us. A God’s child should not be afraid, God gives us security.
The things that happened in the past, I learned to leave them there, because it is past. And if there is something I cannot do is change those things, but what I can do is face my future with new and own determinations and I know no one can take that away from me anymore.
And I know every single year is something new for me, and I know that I can always start, learn, forgive and accept over again.
I am thankful with my heavenly father that allowed me to find in my heart the hope and faith to continue the way with him by my side. I can only say that all I want in this new year is to move from “that is me” to “I am more than that”…
I never liked to admit that God has given me beautiful and amazing talents and virtues and I have always brought to the fore my shortcomings, and the reality is that all I did was feel sorry for myself. And this is the first mistake, because acceptance is not synonymous with resignation, it does not mean that we should feel completely comfortable with them, acceptance means a clearer reality that we can grasp and replace it with something better, acceptance is what leads us of a “that is me” to “I am more than that”…
When I started college I found myself in the same world but it was crueler than mine. These were exactly the same things I used to do but they were at their real version. And I realized how distorted was my identity and when I met so many beautiful people I felt so angry about not being able to help them, I wondered so many times –and I still with this–: how people cannot understand that God created them and he loves them? God created us, and he gives us his infinite love for us, his children. And his love is more than enough to accept our reality and understand that we are not perfect here and we must work it... with God. Acceptance is completely subject to God and it is accompanied with an incredible humility that allows us to surrender to him so HE CAN work in us.
Many people –including us– is too afraid of what others think of them, and they see their reflection in the mirror as an ugly duckling, feeling miserable and rejected. We have not understood yet what fear does in us, fear LURES, it takes us strength and weakens us. A God’s child should not be afraid, God gives us security.
The things that happened in the past, I learned to leave them there, because it is past. And if there is something I cannot do is change those things, but what I can do is face my future with new and own determinations and I know no one can take that away from me anymore.
And I know every single year is something new for me, and I know that I can always start, learn, forgive and accept over again.
I am thankful with my heavenly father that allowed me to find in my heart the hope and faith to continue the way with him by my side. I can only say that all I want in this new year is to move from “that is me” to “I am more than that”…
God bless you,
A.
A.
