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Co-dependency is usually misinterpreted for love. It is great generalization. But don't let this fool you. I know by experience that they are two very different things. In the darkest of my days, I had the need and desire to feel loved and cherished. I tried to find love in so many things: online relationships, sexual temptation, undermining friendships, and basically anything that a teenager may face. Thank goodness I was never under pressure to take drugs or drink. Having never dated (by choice), it has allowed me to kind of stay away from those temptations and pressures. But at times I did feel lonely. That's when I went to online relationships and chatrooms to fill that emptiness. I Skyped whoever wanted to speak to me, allowed people to see me, done activities no minor should be doing, even almost met up with some people I have met online. But it did not have to go to that extent. It was a very dark moment in my life. It still is an issue. I have lost touch with the Lord, ever since I moved states. I need to rebuild my foundations, before I move on with my life. I've allowed for God to work through me by keeping past connections with people. These people are trusted, my best friends, strong in the faith. The way I kinda avoided the temptations is simply not negotiating myself along with avoiding any unhealthy relationships I developed online. I know that these online people are my friends, and we merely grew up loving one another, but again, it is fake. I sometimes get those feelings that, wow, I think you're perfect for me. But they aren't Christians. When they give me affection I feel worthy and in a way loved. But it is not love. Love shouldn't be felt in that way. Just avoiding those relationships and keeping strong connections with my Christian friends have allowed me to slowly rebuild the walls I've broken down over the past few months.
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." ~Mathew 6:34
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." ~Mathew 6:34
