Peace be with you, very sad to hear you talk like that, a mocker of the Truth and this also grieves the HOLY SPIRIT. Initially as a fresh in faith believer the fear you experienced is only for GOD's Word and that was also initially your first love in fearing HIM.
Now since you have not continued to supplement to your faith Kingdom knowledge and practices of Holy Scripture's New Covenant commandment and instructions and also by the Help of the Teacher the HOLY SPIRIT, you are beginning to slowly lose everything that GOD has sown in you. You are not mocking and disregarding against man but GOD the HOLY SPIRIT who have inspired the Holy Scriptures in the Holy Bible.
In reminder and to the stir up one's memory, instead of you growing in spirit and truth to worship, honoring the True Living GOD who is SPIRIT, you have outgrown and gone ahead of CHRIST, growing in spirit and false worshiping honoring the false dead God, Satan who is also a spirit and also written, he plants his 'seed of weeds' here on earth too.
You still have Grace for repentance for as it is written; "HE corrects the ones HE loves."
"If you talk anything against the Son of man, you can be forgiven but if you talk anything against the HOLY SPIRIT, you can never be forgiven."
May the Merciful GOD the FATHER of our LORD JESUS CHRIST forgive you and bless you with truth, kindness and peace.
Now since you have not continued to supplement to your faith Kingdom knowledge and practices of Holy Scripture's New Covenant commandment and instructions and also by the Help of the Teacher the HOLY SPIRIT, you are beginning to slowly lose everything that GOD has sown in you. You are not mocking and disregarding against man but GOD the HOLY SPIRIT who have inspired the Holy Scriptures in the Holy Bible.
In reminder and to the stir up one's memory, instead of you growing in spirit and truth to worship, honoring the True Living GOD who is SPIRIT, you have outgrown and gone ahead of CHRIST, growing in spirit and false worshiping honoring the false dead God, Satan who is also a spirit and also written, he plants his 'seed of weeds' here on earth too.
You still have Grace for repentance for as it is written; "HE corrects the ones HE loves."
"If you talk anything against the Son of man, you can be forgiven but if you talk anything against the HOLY SPIRIT, you can never be forgiven."
May the Merciful GOD the FATHER of our LORD JESUS CHRIST forgive you and bless you with truth, kindness and peace.