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Hello, this is my first post and I don't think I could be in a better place to seek advice and help with this trauma. My husband and I have been married for nearly 10 years, we have 3 children and the youngest is only 2 months old. A few years ago he had an affair with another woman. I thought I was going to die when I found out. This ripped me to pieces, shattered glass everywhere literally. I asked what exactly happened and he said they went out, enjoyed meals together etc. Nearly 3 years afterwards I felt led perhaps by the Lord to get the full truth. He admitted to having sex with her a few times. Again I was left devastated and shattered just like before. This has always been in the back of my mind and I have always wanted to know her name. He used to say he couldn't remember and now it "what difference will it make". I told him that I cannot forgive him if I don't have the truth about his time with her. Anyway to cut a long story short we separated a month ago. He treated me really badly from about January, some violence including emotional abuse. Some days it feels like I am having a nervous breakdown. I have been diagnosed with depression and prescribed medicine to treat the condition.
I am all over the place and will need to go back to work very soon. Finances are a huge worry. Being on my own with the three little ones is very difficult. I have been scouring the internet for an online business or just anything I could do part time from home to subsidise the income we have from the state to make things that little bit easier. I may have found an opportunity but it requires and outlay of money which I don't have. Will you please pray for my family, for the business opportunity if it is meant to be the finances will come from somewhere. My heart is so full of resentment towards my husband, these few weeks of our baby's life should be full of joy and happiness and it has been nothing but sad. He is not remorseful for what he has done, instead he often says "just get over it"! This man has lost his family and doesn't care??? I can't seem to get my head around this. I have never cheated on him, I have apologised for all that I have done wrong like shouting at him. I suppose as a Christian we are a little more forgiving at times and I don't want to be riddled with guilt.
Thanks to all, please pray. My husband asked me the other day if I see us getting back together - I said no. I don't know if that was the right answer? what is best for the children and for each other? how will I know for sure before I shut him out completely and move on. For some background we moved from the UK to Australia nearly 18 months ago. Things were not loving or wonderful in England but they are worse here. He doesn't understand that a relationship cannot be built on deceit and lies. I have given him so many chances to come clean about everything and seek help for his anger issues - he does nothing? I think I am fighting a losing battle?
GOD BLESS
I am all over the place and will need to go back to work very soon. Finances are a huge worry. Being on my own with the three little ones is very difficult. I have been scouring the internet for an online business or just anything I could do part time from home to subsidise the income we have from the state to make things that little bit easier. I may have found an opportunity but it requires and outlay of money which I don't have. Will you please pray for my family, for the business opportunity if it is meant to be the finances will come from somewhere. My heart is so full of resentment towards my husband, these few weeks of our baby's life should be full of joy and happiness and it has been nothing but sad. He is not remorseful for what he has done, instead he often says "just get over it"! This man has lost his family and doesn't care??? I can't seem to get my head around this. I have never cheated on him, I have apologised for all that I have done wrong like shouting at him. I suppose as a Christian we are a little more forgiving at times and I don't want to be riddled with guilt.
Thanks to all, please pray. My husband asked me the other day if I see us getting back together - I said no. I don't know if that was the right answer? what is best for the children and for each other? how will I know for sure before I shut him out completely and move on. For some background we moved from the UK to Australia nearly 18 months ago. Things were not loving or wonderful in England but they are worse here. He doesn't understand that a relationship cannot be built on deceit and lies. I have given him so many chances to come clean about everything and seek help for his anger issues - he does nothing? I think I am fighting a losing battle?
GOD BLESS