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i am newly saved, i posted a few weeks ago about disliking my husband, which i also know is wrong, but i have to be honest and so i'm not going to sit there and act like i have feelings for him that i don't. I am new to the church, i didn't grow up in church and have no family or friends that are saved. my husband most likely, is not saved. The pastor preaches about things in church and my husband goes to church with me, but the minute we step out of church, he dismisses everything we learned and is so mean. He's mean to our children, to the point where if he goes fishing for the weekend, my 3 year old says how glad he is that daddy is gone. I know God hates divorce, but doesn't God also hate when parent's don't bring their children up for God? My husband does not read the bible with them, doesn't talk about God at all, inf act, does the opposite and exposes them to his anger daily and violent video games and nonsense t.v. At what point, honestly do i say enough is enough? After my kids are 20 years old and hating God because their dad has turned them away from Him? It pains my heart, I am trying to bear wwhat I've been dealt, trying to move past the regret of marrying this man, but I am daily, living in sadness because of the life i lived as an unsaved person - and having to deal with it now. I feel, in many ways, I am losing hope in all aspects of my life. I am sorry if i offended anyone, it was not my intnetion to do so. i am lost, and hurt. How can I possibly maintain my walk with the Lord and hate my husband? I am trying to move past it, I've read books on how to do it, I've done it all, but he is so miserable and he purposely tries to bring me to his level, too. and succeeds. When my kids voice things, i do not agree with them or i tell them not to say such things about their father, but secretly, i agree with them. I am broken.
