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I don't know what to do in my life now...It seems that things are falling apart and I'm really depressed. I made a career suicide, last March I decided to leave my job as I want to work abroad but when I'm there, I felt that I'm not yet ready for that transformation. So i came back to my country, but it's harder than I thought...People here knows that I'm abroad, some of them knows that I'm here and whenever they asked me if what happened, I try to ignore them. I want to be alone as soon as i fixed these things. I'm all messed up and until now I don't have a job and it's really frustrating me. Have regrets that I should have stayed there and really do my best to find a job. But what Can I do, i lost the opportunity and can't get back on track. I refused to see my friends because I'm ashamed they will look low on me and they feel sorry for me. I want to hide from everybody because I admit that I also felt sorry for myself. I asked God to give me a sense of direction, to guide me through this darkness and that I may see the light of hope. I always cried at night because This is not what I planned . Someone told me to surrender all my past regrets and disappointments in life and allow God to plan for me. But it's really hard as when I wake up in the morning, I remember the things that I've done wrong and I feel that God is very distant from me. I sometimes want to end this life as it's harder to wake up each day. Please help me brothers and sisters, I need your encouragement.