I think I have lost hope for reconciliation.
Apparently family life is too boring. He thinks we should go to bars several nights a week and socialize like college students. We should leave the three teenagers at home alone and go party. Our children are weighing him down and cause him to have a boring life.
I told him there will be plenty of time for us to do whatever we want after the kids are out of the house in 6 years. Obviously that's not soon enough for him. He thinks going to the kids ballgames, plays, and practices is boring. He says that he doesn't talk to the other parents because they all act stuck up. Therefore, he doesn't want to go to their games. I go to watch my kids and I am friendly with the others even when they are stuck up to me.
He thinks I should only go to church about once or twice a month because I should have been spending that time with him. He only goes to church with us about twice a year.
I actually think he enjoys being separated. He gets to do as he pleases and sees us whenever he decides he wants a family. I think the only things he doesn't like is the lack of money and not being able to sleep with me.
I really think God is trying to tell me to move forward without him. How do I do that?
I have been praying and leaving it in God's hands. I just pray that my children and I have the strength to make it through this.
