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I've been reading and re-reading all your comments. I've been making an effort. I shower regularly, I've been watching what I eat and I've lost some weight. And reg our sex life - I've been more responsive and have said 'no' only twice or thrice in the last 2 months.
And I've even made a friend. A SAHM with 3 kids.
And nothing's changed.
To respond to some of you - yes I have spoken to him about all these things. He says he's better than most Indian men and I should be grateful that I have a husband who provides for us and is around the house all the time. He says I am ungrateful and that I am just looking for ways to control and dominate him.
I am exhausted by being mommy all the time with hardly any support. I'm lonely without an adult to talk to. Regarding the friend i recently made - he doesn't like me hanging out with her too much and so nothing's changed.
He's still nagging me to make money. He wants me to take up wedding cake decoration. Yes it is something I'm good at but that kind of work needs time and tons of support. I have neither. So he's constantly cribbing about how I don't contribute to the family.
I am considering moving into my parents house for a few weeks. If anyone asks, I'll just say I wanted to spend time with my parents for a while. No one needs to know I'm doing it for my sanity.
I am losing hope. I feel dead and useless. And I just want to die.
And to the person who asked - yes this partly a way to vent too. But not entirely. What's wrong with venting?
And I've even made a friend. A SAHM with 3 kids.
And nothing's changed.
To respond to some of you - yes I have spoken to him about all these things. He says he's better than most Indian men and I should be grateful that I have a husband who provides for us and is around the house all the time. He says I am ungrateful and that I am just looking for ways to control and dominate him.
I am exhausted by being mommy all the time with hardly any support. I'm lonely without an adult to talk to. Regarding the friend i recently made - he doesn't like me hanging out with her too much and so nothing's changed.
He's still nagging me to make money. He wants me to take up wedding cake decoration. Yes it is something I'm good at but that kind of work needs time and tons of support. I have neither. So he's constantly cribbing about how I don't contribute to the family.
I am considering moving into my parents house for a few weeks. If anyone asks, I'll just say I wanted to spend time with my parents for a while. No one needs to know I'm doing it for my sanity.
I am losing hope. I feel dead and useless. And I just want to die.
And to the person who asked - yes this partly a way to vent too. But not entirely. What's wrong with venting?