Strong Woman, that sucks and I understand. I myself became distracted with the world. It is very easy for it to happen in order to provide and survive in this world as we begin to see it. We start relying on ourselves and forget to believe in God and his promises. It can get our priorities all off the foundation. I hope with you having ministered, yor still trying to talk with your husband and children about God and take fellowship in a Godly church. My wife recently has become on fire for God and I am so glad, it is helping me get back in alignment with Him. Being able to pray as a family and seek the Fathers will as one is an awesome thing no doubt. It has been too dry, too long. If your husband has failed to be the spiritual leader in your house and partner, the Lord is with you, lead him and the kids. Anyone that has been near to God knows what it is like to have His love and passion of the spiritual spring run through you, I hate the fact I went cold and I hate myself for it. I know the Lord forgives, but I am having trouble forgiving myself. When you know the Father and perfect love how and why did I fail him. I hate being weak and I pray God will not just restore me, but bring me to an even greater level of understanding and faith. That I may serve him and do His will on this earth and turn away from my own. For His honor and His glory are what matter to me, they once were and I am driving to again make them the treasures of my heart. He is the song of my soul and I let the love of my life the Father and the Son down. Keep faith sister, we all fail at some point, we all fall and are pruned back. That way we can learn to pick ourselves back up again and grow even closer, for his honor and glory. God Bless.