I'm so sorry, Miagey86! My heart just breaks for you, you must feel as though you're losing everything. 
My husband and I have also experienced the pain of this loss, but we had been blessed with a child, and I know that made it easier.
Eight years ago my sister lost her husband to cancer, and 20 months later her 9 year old son died. I honestly don't know how she would have survived but for the Lord. And there it is...BUT GOD! Seeing how my sister dealt with it has been such a testimony to me of God's ever presentness in troiuble. It sounds like you are tuned in to this, and for that I praise God!
In all of life's afflictions there's always...but God! Life is hard, BUT GOD is good. Things look bleak, BUT GOD is there.
I encourage you to read the Psalms...I have found Psalm 31 and Psalm 102 especially helpful. The psalmists pour their hearts out to God about their troubles, BUT GOD is there!
Love the Lord, all you His godly ones!The Lord preserves the faithful
And fully recompenses the proud doer.
Be strong and let your heart take courage,
All you who hope in the Lord.
Psalm 31:23-24 NASB
I say, “O my God, do not take me away in the midst of my days,Your years are throughout all generations.
“Of old You founded the earth,
And the heavens are the work of Your hands.
“Even they will perish, but You endure;
And all of them will wear out like a garment;
Like clothing You will change them and they will be changed.
“But You are the same,
And Your years will not come to an end.
“The children of Your servants will continue,
And their descendants will be established before You.”
Psalm 102:25-28 NASB
How sweet to know the Lord knows how we feel at these times! How good to be able to trust in Him for all things. How wonderful to read Romans 8:28-39!
And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to
His purpose. 29 For those whom He foreknew, He also predestined
to become conformed to the image of His Son, so that He would be the firstborn among many brethren; 30 and these whom He predestined, He also called; and these whom He called, He also justified; and these whom He justified, He also glorified. 31 What then shall we say to these things? If God
is for us, who
is against us? 32 He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things? 33 Who will bring a charge against God’s elect? God is the one who justifies; 34 who is the one who condemns? Christ Jesus is He who died, yes, rather who was raised, who is at the right hand of God, who also intercedes for us. 35 Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 Just as it is written,
“ For Your sake we are being put to death all day long;
We were considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
37 But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
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I used to think about the first part of the beginning of that section of Scripture, that all things work together for good to those who love God. then one day the Lord showed me that the "good" mentioned is to be conformed to the image of His Son!! (I'm a little s-l-o-w. lol)
I pray this will bless you; this knowledge that even in this, God is conforming you to the image of Jesus. All we suffer increases our faith, and that is no small thing.
You probably know all this already, but please also know that I will be asking the Lord to keep you, and your wife, in this trial. I will be asking him to heal you, and bring you to Himself, and to one another.
Take heart, dear one, for if God is for us, who shall stand against us?
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