I feel as if I battle everyday with the devil himself. In 2007, my marriage was ruined due to the adulterous relationship my wife engaged in. I had to end my career as a truck driver as that was not conducive to being a single parent. I guess I just don't know how to get my life in gear and get going. I have struggled to stay full time employed therefore; I have severe financial difficulties now. Of course my personal possessions such as my house are in jeopardy. Recently my fifteen year old decided to go live with his mom full-time which I am glad to see them getting a relationship after he lived with me for five years without any virtual contact with her. I'm like ok the battle is over my family is ruined, I am not effectively influencing my kids now, I am battling with loneliness, depression, I have no relationship with anyone at all now as family is out of tough. So why cant the battle be over the victory is won let me just be left alone. I just don't see any other reason for Satan to work his dastardly plan towards me.
I am not whining but I see so many other people who picked up the pieces and got their lives back together and went on to be successful in their careers, social life, and church. So why is it so hard for me?
Hi Rerun
I understand where you are coming from.
The devil is always roaming around to devour us christians in order to make our lives miserable. We will be miserable if we let him.
Ask yourself the question - What can I do about my circumstances? If you can physically change anything, then make it a point to do so.
If you can't, then focus your eyes on Jesus cause He is the only one who can lead you through the valley.
Many times God allows us to be in a valley because He wants us to trust Him, to have faith in Him and to release everything into His Hands.
If you are battling with loneliness, try to find a church so that you can fill some of your time with brothers and sisters in Christ.
But at the end of the day only Christ can fill that loneliness.
I totally understand your loneliness. I am living in Spain, which is not my homeland but my husbands. We came here 10 years ago and through all these 10 years, it was the loneliest times of my life. I have my husband with me but he was too busy with other people and forgot all about me. I couldn't speak the language and I was not accepted well because I am Asian.
Divorce was out of the question for me so I even contemplated suicide.
I was so focused on my situation. Things started to change only when I gave up and gave all to God. I started spending more time in the word of God and prayer and little by little I started to feel better. My situation still stayed the same but my thoughts and feelings started to change for the better. I started to see things from a different perspective and God started to show me things through His word.
Am I still lonely? To a certain degree cause I miss my family back home in Australia.
But I am not miserable cause God is sustaining me.
We do not have jobs and relying on the government for help. This too I had to learn to accept cause I always had a job before and never had to rely on the govt. for help.
I do have a flat but through the years, this too I have learnt, that even if I had nothing physical, the most important is my spiritual life cause with a strong spiritual life, you will be able to overcome anything; hunger, living in a tent etc.
Paul in the bible is an inspiration to me. He talks about the hardship he went through in 2 Corinthians 11:23-12:10
He was in prison, flogged, received lashes and beated with rods, stoned, shipwrecked, in danger from rivers & bandits, in danger in the city, country and at sea, in danger from false brothers, he laboured and toiled and often gone withour sleep. He has known hunger and thirst and have often gone without food, he has been cold and naked. He has has a continuous thorn in his flesh, a messenger of satan to torment him.
The Lord said to Paul in 12:9 My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.
Paul said 12:9-10 Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Rerun, your situation may not change or it may but you can overcome anything in Christ.
May God bless you and lead you. May He have mercy upon you and strengthen you.
