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when i was younger my mother was very physically abusive towards me and my two older siblings them more than i because they protected me from her. To this day she is two different people the wonderful lady that everyone sees at church and the verbally abusive mother at home. growing up she didnt want to take care of me but we couldnt afford daycare so she would take me to all of the local christian preschools so i learned about God at a very early age but i also learned that church was a safe place if i was at church or one of the preschools mom was a nice person so i loved going to church. probably until i was 7 or 8 i knew everything about God i could learn but i wasnt really at church for a relationship with God i was just there to be safe and happy.
I am the Christian i am today because of my mother if it werent for her lack of love i honestly dont know if i would truly embrace the love of Christ and want to share it with people every where. I dont honestly know if i would want to be a missionary right now if she werent my mother. also i wouldnt have the amazing relationships i have with older ladies in my church if i had that mother daughter relationship at home. but if i didnt have her as a mother i dont know if my sister would be unwed and pregnant right now or my dad would be as sick as he is right now or if i would have been so depressed in the past or if i would have hurt my self in the past. Her lack of love and care has made me who I am today but her physical and verbal abuse made me who i was in the past. I thank God everyday he blessed me with an amazing father and an amazing older brother who pretty much plays the role of parent for me because without them i probably wouldnt be here today to tell this story.
I am the Christian i am today because of my mother if it werent for her lack of love i honestly dont know if i would truly embrace the love of Christ and want to share it with people every where. I dont honestly know if i would want to be a missionary right now if she werent my mother. also i wouldnt have the amazing relationships i have with older ladies in my church if i had that mother daughter relationship at home. but if i didnt have her as a mother i dont know if my sister would be unwed and pregnant right now or my dad would be as sick as he is right now or if i would have been so depressed in the past or if i would have hurt my self in the past. Her lack of love and care has made me who I am today but her physical and verbal abuse made me who i was in the past. I thank God everyday he blessed me with an amazing father and an amazing older brother who pretty much plays the role of parent for me because without them i probably wouldnt be here today to tell this story.
] I was always raised in the church, but i never exactly took it as serious, and that caused great troubles. I made not-so-gud friends, who led me in the wrong path, and eventually it went too far: I got a tracking form all due 2 horse-playing in class; that was the worst day of my life. I eventually forgave them 4 what they did and moved on. Not only did I make not-so-gud friends at school, but also at church, as u might know, kids at church nowadays don't luv Jesus; they have no zest 4 Christ, and it's heart-breaking, because i was once one. And ever since i became a christian, i stopped speaking 2 such people, because 1) they say i act like an 'adult' all because i praise God in His presence, unilike them. 2) i'm not as 'fun' as i was b4 i became a christian.and 3) they aren't true christians at heart, they think fakin' it is o.k. It sometimes troubles me, 2 know that i no longer have physical friends 2 talk 2, or u know, be a 'teenager' with, and i sometimes i feel alone, but then i remember that my God exists, He luvs me, and nowadays, i show my luv with out a care in the world, i know now that i go 2 the Lord's Presence 2 serve Him and Honor His Great name. Accepting Christ wasn't easy, but being a pre-teen during that time was even harder, and i'm still struggling with it, but i know all the things i'm going through will come 2 pass, and i'm just countin' down the days 2 c my Savior and c His glorious face, i can't wait!! Please pray 4 me, u know i'm gonna need it in a world like this; Hey, did i tell u that now these peole who i was gud with, long ago, at church have become my 'enemies', the Devil uses them 2 put me down [they make other friends, just 2 try 2 make me envious; jealous of them; they do it 2 get revenge on me or something like that], but i've forgiven them, and what they do is none of my concern, God bless u and thank u 4 reading my testimony of God's gracious luv towards me!
