Have you ever read the prodigal son? Luke 15:11-32
Verses 31, 32 “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”
Jesus would celebrate your return. Don't let satan fool you otherwise! Satan wanst to keep you in doubt.
Jesus is waiting with open arms!
I pray that you will gain wisdom and understanding who you are in Jesus.
Eph 2:8 For by grace are you saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God
(God saved you by his grace when you believed. And you can't take credit for this; it is a gift from God.)