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I just thought I'd ask for some advice or at least just try and get it out of my system.
I just feel completely worthless to my family, not only to my family but to my friends either. I feel as though my family don't want me around and I feel invisible to my friends. The last few months have been really tough at home, there's been a lot of arguments and I just feel as though I'm always the one that gets the blame, I feel as though my family blame me for all of the arguments. Last night I were doing an essay and i were trying to update my iphone at the same time but i couldnt get my mac to update it so i asked my sister if she had itunes but she just ignored me, I asked her several times and she just didn't answer so it really got me all worked up and I shouted at her asking her to stop being so rude and to start talking to me. I know I shouldn't have shouted but to cut a long story short for a few years now me and my sister haven't been close and i just feel as though she's trying to deny the fact that we're related. Anyway i went downstairs and my mum started arguing with me cos id shouted at my sister so me and my mum started shouting at each other then she slapped me really hard which made me even angrier. This carried on from about 9 til 11 at night then I apologised for shouting and arguing and just tried to explain how I feel. Anyway it got to this afternoon and we were talking about college work then my sister said something along the lines of 'why have you been off college for ages for no reason?' so to get back at her i said 'because we weren't on timetable. you can't say anything anyway, you were the one that didn't go to school when you had to be there' then she stormed off upstairs and my mum followed her.
I feel so ridiculous telling you this but what the heck can I do? I feel as though my mum cares about my sister so much more than she cares about me and not only that I feel as though she cares about my sisters boyfriend more than she cares about me.
Its like last night when I upset my sister my mum went to her straight away and stuck up for her but when my sister upset me tonight my mum didn't care, infact my mum left me and went to Church. As for my sister she said she hates me and wants me to get chucked out of the house.
I just dont know what to do, i've explained to my mum time and time again that I feel as though she wants to be with my sister rather than being with me but nothing changes. And the same with my sister, i told her that i felt as though she just didn't want me around at all.
And as for my friends, they couldn't give two monkeys. I just feel like i've got no friends at all
I just feel completely worthless to my family, not only to my family but to my friends either. I feel as though my family don't want me around and I feel invisible to my friends. The last few months have been really tough at home, there's been a lot of arguments and I just feel as though I'm always the one that gets the blame, I feel as though my family blame me for all of the arguments. Last night I were doing an essay and i were trying to update my iphone at the same time but i couldnt get my mac to update it so i asked my sister if she had itunes but she just ignored me, I asked her several times and she just didn't answer so it really got me all worked up and I shouted at her asking her to stop being so rude and to start talking to me. I know I shouldn't have shouted but to cut a long story short for a few years now me and my sister haven't been close and i just feel as though she's trying to deny the fact that we're related. Anyway i went downstairs and my mum started arguing with me cos id shouted at my sister so me and my mum started shouting at each other then she slapped me really hard which made me even angrier. This carried on from about 9 til 11 at night then I apologised for shouting and arguing and just tried to explain how I feel. Anyway it got to this afternoon and we were talking about college work then my sister said something along the lines of 'why have you been off college for ages for no reason?' so to get back at her i said 'because we weren't on timetable. you can't say anything anyway, you were the one that didn't go to school when you had to be there' then she stormed off upstairs and my mum followed her.
I feel so ridiculous telling you this but what the heck can I do? I feel as though my mum cares about my sister so much more than she cares about me and not only that I feel as though she cares about my sisters boyfriend more than she cares about me.
Its like last night when I upset my sister my mum went to her straight away and stuck up for her but when my sister upset me tonight my mum didn't care, infact my mum left me and went to Church. As for my sister she said she hates me and wants me to get chucked out of the house.
I just dont know what to do, i've explained to my mum time and time again that I feel as though she wants to be with my sister rather than being with me but nothing changes. And the same with my sister, i told her that i felt as though she just didn't want me around at all.
And as for my friends, they couldn't give two monkeys. I just feel like i've got no friends at all
