I'm so incredibly sorry for what you are going through but God is right by your side. My parents separated when I was eight years old I remember seeing my mom crying for months. They had been together for 8 years and he cheated on her for a very long time my mom was completely blindsided. I was too young to understand but I felt my moms grief and it hurt so much to see her like that. But my mom prayed, prayed, and prayed some more. My mother is now the strongest and bravest woman I have ever met. She got through it all with God guiding her way and she is truly happy now. One day I know you will come to the conclusion my mom did. You will be happy again I promise but this wound is so deep it takes time to heal. Reach out to God he feels your pain and he will heal you. He will show you love and take care of you in your time of need. God will make a way when there seems to be no way. Take this time to truly discover who you are, learn to love yourself, most importantly don't forget to pamper yourself. God is with you always at your best and worst times. I promise he will help you just reach out to him and pray your heart out. God bless, I will be praying for you!