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So I have been putting 2 and 2 together, and realize for some time. I have been attracting women who i find out afterwards or i know about it during the 'courtship' and choose to ignore it that are gay or bi or are confused.
it has happened at least 3 times, but i think 2 more times are quite possibly obvious too.
1)The one girl who i feel was my 'first love' years ago, she didn't talk to me for a while after dumping me. Met her on a christian site btw, go christian dating sites! She then told me she thought she might be a lesbian. And now, she's bi.
2)Another gal i met when i was in school for massage(i dont to this trade anymore) but she was really outgoing but always hung out with a butch gal. At the time i didnt know they were 'dating' But later one she snuck around and hung out with me. And i really felt the strong attraction. But later on she flakes out and says she's confused and is going back to her gay girlfriend.
Years later she tries to reaccuaint with me as a friend at least, but it was wierd. And now she says she is straight. but obviously..issues galore.
3)Very recently i felt i met the most amazing christian gal online. We were talking and encouraging each other for a little while. We met recently, i felt totally like we would at least be good friends. She stops talking to me for a while..says she's sorry and feels that she is 'probably going to never find a man because of her issues'. But today tells me she fell in a love with a 'beautifull heart' which i knew inside was a woman/a lesbian whom she went on a road trip with and she admitted to it. I told her im here for her as a friend and don't judge her.
I find it amusing that i keep on and on doing the same thing. Sometimes when this happens I feel like George Castanza at Seinfeld. Totally, im fat, balding..socially awkward too.
Not trying to be hard on myself but i am noticing a pattern. I don't think i am reading into this. Has anyone here met anyone like this, or someone who has gone through something similar?
it has happened at least 3 times, but i think 2 more times are quite possibly obvious too.
1)The one girl who i feel was my 'first love' years ago, she didn't talk to me for a while after dumping me. Met her on a christian site btw, go christian dating sites! She then told me she thought she might be a lesbian. And now, she's bi.
2)Another gal i met when i was in school for massage(i dont to this trade anymore) but she was really outgoing but always hung out with a butch gal. At the time i didnt know they were 'dating' But later one she snuck around and hung out with me. And i really felt the strong attraction. But later on she flakes out and says she's confused and is going back to her gay girlfriend.
Years later she tries to reaccuaint with me as a friend at least, but it was wierd. And now she says she is straight. but obviously..issues galore.
3)Very recently i felt i met the most amazing christian gal online. We were talking and encouraging each other for a little while. We met recently, i felt totally like we would at least be good friends. She stops talking to me for a while..says she's sorry and feels that she is 'probably going to never find a man because of her issues'. But today tells me she fell in a love with a 'beautifull heart' which i knew inside was a woman/a lesbian whom she went on a road trip with and she admitted to it. I told her im here for her as a friend and don't judge her.
I find it amusing that i keep on and on doing the same thing. Sometimes when this happens I feel like George Castanza at Seinfeld. Totally, im fat, balding..socially awkward too.
Not trying to be hard on myself but i am noticing a pattern. I don't think i am reading into this. Has anyone here met anyone like this, or someone who has gone through something similar?
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