I don't want to have my own children, and there are several reasons for that. I have a brother who is ten years younger than I am, and I took care of him a lot when he was a baby. This probably took away a lot of the "I have to know what it feels like to take care for an infant" feeling. I really don't have a huge desire to change diapers and such, though I wouldn't especially mind it. I also like helping other peoples' children (online and in real life), and it's fine with me if I'm more of a foster mom than a biological mom. DNA doesn't matter to me in relationships. I might want to have actual foster children one day, but at the moment it's not an option with my schedule for several different reasons. Also, I'm fine with staying single as long as I'm in God's will, and I wouldn't want to have any children without them having a dad (foster children I'd be fine with as a single lady, since they're already there and need someone to love them). I like having a certain amount of time to myself, and children are tons of work if you take care of them properly (which, to me, would include either making sure that they understand the home-school material I teach them or private school. I'm not going to send mine to public school, Lord willing). Although these are plenty of reasons, I'm open to whatever the Lord has for me. Often He lets us feel certain ways to keep us from being too frustrated, or to see if we'll keep following Him when things get rough
. I suppose that the fact that I'm getting old enough that it may be tricky to find guy, fall in love, marry, have lots of time alone with each other, and then have our own child before running out of biological time to do so has something to do with it also. The notion of having children right away after marrying never did appeal to me. I'm really grateful that I feel this way, actually...I see an awful lot of women get bitter over not marrying or getting to have their own children. Yes, being single isn't the easiest thing in the world for most of us, but it isn't the hardest thing anyone has ever been asked to do, either. His yoke is easy, and His burden is light
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