I've been the only christian in my family since I was a young child. I was grateful that some neighbors down the road used to take me to church with them. Because church and fellowship time was seen as unimportant i was able to go to church when "there was nothing better to do on sunday." when we moved (age 9) I was on my own for several years to 'figure it out'. Conversations about G_D, Christ, religion, and what we believed where topics that could not be discussed. School was even even worse because I was always an outsider and ended up finding my "friends" in books.
we moved again in during high school, and this was the first time I was able to really connect to christians. I had hear about how christians should act and read the word, but i was finally able to talk with people about G_D, faith, Christ, and learn from others what it was to be a child of G_D. Like all churches, this one had its problems too. most of the time teens are ignored by the older members. this made it hard for me to get my endless questions answered by anyone outside of my peer group, but i got to be around christians so that's all that mattered. In many ways it made home feel even colder and more lonely because i wanted to talk about everything i was learning and share about my new friends, but was unable to.
Finally I was able to go to college and surround myself with believers. It took some time, but i was able to get well connected in a church and felt like an adopted child in a few families. Even now, when i go back, its odd to see how differently these families are from the one i grew up in. I love the time with those christians around me, but growing up around unbelievers has also helped me be able to connect with others in a way some of my friends find difficult.
It is lonely but the best thing I can say for you is remember Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things G_d works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose"
I hope this helps a little. It does get better
we moved again in during high school, and this was the first time I was able to really connect to christians. I had hear about how christians should act and read the word, but i was finally able to talk with people about G_D, faith, Christ, and learn from others what it was to be a child of G_D. Like all churches, this one had its problems too. most of the time teens are ignored by the older members. this made it hard for me to get my endless questions answered by anyone outside of my peer group, but i got to be around christians so that's all that mattered. In many ways it made home feel even colder and more lonely because i wanted to talk about everything i was learning and share about my new friends, but was unable to.
Finally I was able to go to college and surround myself with believers. It took some time, but i was able to get well connected in a church and felt like an adopted child in a few families. Even now, when i go back, its odd to see how differently these families are from the one i grew up in. I love the time with those christians around me, but growing up around unbelievers has also helped me be able to connect with others in a way some of my friends find difficult.
It is lonely but the best thing I can say for you is remember Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things G_d works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose"
I hope this helps a little. It does get better
Blessings.