Thank you... to everyone who prayed for me and who continues to pray for me. I feel as if I am in a dark tunnel... with no way out. Days pass go by before I am able to laugh or even smile. I feel so broken and I wonder if I will ever find happiness again. I wonder if I can ever return to the person I was. I've lost touch with most of my friends because they are angry at me for being unable to fulfill social obligations. People are insisting that I come chat with them or call... keep in contact how do I explain to them that I go to sleep every night praying that I do not have to wake up the next morning. How to I explain to them the amount of energy it takes for me to get out of bed, let alone force myself to have one small meal a day. How do I try to be normal for them? I am aware that some of my friends need me. I've always been the girl they went to when they were in trouble. Now I'm the one in trouble and I can't face them. I can't do what they are asking me to do. I have no idea what to do with myself anymore. I've given up on the idea of ever being happy.