*jots down note to remember to buy plane ticket for Colorado so she can get Cris chocolate, coffee, and a good long hug!*
(Unfortunately that scenario couldn't happen for another year or two. But I really do wish I could find a way to cheer you up!!)
Don't let people take your joy and happiness away from you. You deserve to be happy.
^ Just feel like I kinda want/need to add onto this....
Usually I don't say "You deserve to be happy!" or "If it makes you happy, go for it!" but in some cases, God knows that sometimes, we need something that will cheer us up, or take our minds off of bad situations.
I mean, I could get really spiritual and say, well if you focus on Jesus all the time you wouldn't be so stressed or depressed or whatever. While that might be true, what good will saying that do?? Though, even when you do focus on Jesus it can be stressful in life, and people unfortunately don't focus on Him all day, every day, in your sleep, when you eat, and etc. So yeah.
In stressful times like this, I think you do need something to do to help gain some sanity. That might include reading your bible and praying, going out and getting something nice for yourself, or getting a cup of coffee with a friend.
I hope and pray that you get that time to find yourself again.
God bless you, Cristen!!!