2014 is drawing near. In all honesty, I'm not sure if I improved as a person. I try not to look toward the future, or imagine what it will be like. I take things one day at a time, and try to survive through it all. Whatever biblical principles I'm capable of following, I push it to the best of my abilities. But often times, I just don't want to care. And even then, I noticed my life still follows the same pattern of thinking or talking to God when no one is around. And quite often, no one is really around for me to speak my mind and worries. I don't really have that one friend I can talk to. Except for whatever deity I believe in. And even then I'm somewhat reluctant to believe that there is a God that I'm supposed to have a relationship with? You know, it's just hard trying to listen to every little thing everyone in the world has to say about God and what follows after Him. It comes to the point of being maddening. To the point of cracking. Because I just want assurance that what I believe is real. I have faith. But, I also have doubts.