Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[persNickety]

Church went good tonight. I sat alone cus I didn't see anyone I knew and felt like a loner. Then during communion, I saw a bunch of people that I knew and get this.... That co-worker of mine that I thought was cute and felt like a coward cus I didn't ask him out on a date... Well he was there. I had a suspicion that he might go there cus we know the same people. I am quite perceptive. We chatted a bit after the service. And then that was it. I swore to myself that if I saw him again, that I would ask him out....and did I? No. Lol. Whatevs, I'm sure I'll see him again at church.

 

[Jullianna]

Did Peyton win? I was too busy to be diverted by watching the Denver Donkeys.

<3 Peyton did win <3

 

[Liamson]

I hope Peyton Kills the Seahawks. I hope its like 49 to 12 or something awesomely ridiculous.

 

[iraasuup]

I can't find my phone. Can someone call me?

 

[Fenner]

I can't find my phone. Can someone call me?

This happens to me every day. ugh!!!

 

[didymos]

I may or may not have overdosed on football today.

If you're still alive you haven't...

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

I'm kinda glad at least today @ work they can't mock me about the Niners losing after the Pats got spanked!
It's sad really...I actually used to root for the Patriots as sort of my "back-up team" back when Drew Bledsoe was their QB.
Tom Brady just kinda annoys me,and really...Patriot fans are like...ugh. lol

So yeah it's dr.MLK jr. day & I get Holiday pay...how odd...but cool I suppose.
True story.

 

[cyphercat]

I'm kinda glad at least today @ work they can't mock me about the Niners losing after the Pats got spanked!
It's sad really...I actually used to root for the Patriots as sort of my "back-up team" back when Drew Bledsoe was their QB.
Tom Brady just kinda annoys me,and really...Patriot fans are like...ugh. lol

So yeah it's dr.MLK jr. day & I get Holiday pay...how odd...but cool I suppose.
True story.

Me posting here is like my work, my negative thoughts are them mocking me, the niners are the opposite thoughts, the pats are the home thoughts
I root for someone when I agree with them, I have a back up team of beliefs I can fall back on.
Someone strong is my quarterback.

 

[cyphercat]

Sounds dangerous and painful.

What I'm doing could be dangerous and painful

 

[Jilly81]

I heard Tom Brady say once on 60 Minutes that a few hours after he won the Super Bowl, he was like "Um... I just won the Super Bowl, and the high is already gone... it's supposed to be the best thing in life, and now it's already gone? Is this really all there is? Isn't there anything more to life?".

I sure wished I could tell him about where my happiness and highs come from...




Thank You, Jesus :')!

 

[persNickety]

Today apparently is Blue Monday. The most depressing day of the year. Not sure why, but telling people that it is, will just make people even more miserable. The power of suggestion. I could say that today is the happiest day of the year, and people's moods will perk up a bit. Then even more because everyone else is perked up and friendly. Moods can be contagious.

 

[wwjd_kilden]

Games we'll play at the Metal party...imagine doing this in the middle of the Mosh Pit? lol

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I'm in!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Jilly81]

Is metal your favorite music, Astrid? Or is it more of a paint thing ?

 

[wwjd_kilden]

I do love metal but the paint bit sounds fun too

I've seen Opeth, In Flames, Satyricon, LOG, and Sonata Arctica live. + a lot of "small" bands

 

[homwardbound]

Thinking about going to church service tonight, feeling full of dread and anxiety when I think about it. I enjoy the church, but there will be people there that I have not spoken to in over a year. I feel shame for letting the communication drop. My old psych prof goes there and I know she is concerned that I stopped going to university. I guess what I am afraid of the most is small talk with people of my past- feels like I have to confront my past and that means I feel shame. Shame for my actions. That I've let people down. That I must account for my actions. And I'll be left without anything to say.

I find guilt a good thing to a point. After I have faced it is what it is, I then move on in learning from it, thanking God it is past gone taken care of Forgiven.
Then asking God to teach me and listen to what to do, and do as God leads, not man's guilt lead
Sister past is past, future not yet here and the present now today is your present from God to you to rejoice in. So please rejoice in it and be glad for Father's Mercy to you and so this love of father to all, no matter what others might think and or feel or act towards you
For God has:
Ephesians 1:6 to the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved.

So do you know this? So what does it matter then what others think and or say since you know in God you are accepted

 

[homwardbound]

I'm getting tired of thinking and or knowing that I'm going to hell. I'm getting tired of being told to "give it up to God" and not worry about it. I'm tired of getting told what to do and how it should be done. I'm tired of feeling like a constant failure to the people around me. I'm getting those same feelings again. The very same ones that drove me to that crazy downward spiral.

The best thing I can do is just quietly blend in and live my life in a dull pattern. I hate living with a bitter town.

listening to the chatter of others causes many times division from the truth of God to you, and we forget the depth of god's love to us through Son and start to try to do right in our own sight and the sight of ours, now that is were we as Humans fail and go astray from trust God alone to do in us what we can't do in self
Galatians 6:8 For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.

Chew on that verse for awhile asking God to reveal the truth in it for you?

 

[homwardbound]

Why do people come on this site and try to tell others what is wrong and right, How to live your life and how you should and shouldn't do things.

What I found is to communicate and not tell others what to do, even though it comes out that way many times and not always meant that way
For I know as I found out this:
Sin takes occasion by the commandment, so when I am told not to steal, I might not, yet the thought has been placed in my mind and the potential has been created for me to do just that when I am mad enough over others telling me God is going to get me if I do this or that
When in actuality I found that when I used to do the same telling others not to, I finally saw this, that I was doing what I said not to do to others. Trying to pass the blame onto others as Adam and Eve did when they hid from God. It was the woman you gave me, not me God, afraid and the Woman said it was the serpent.
So I see now that whenever someone accuses me of something and is all over me about it, I bet they are guilty themselves of the very same thing
Just something to think about we as Human pass the blame inherently
So what do we do, maybe just plain and simply hold ourselves accountable to God and not pass the blame and start to trust God to make us able to stand in trust to God through Son's finished work for us all that decide to believe God and God alone
Believe, receive and see thus be by Faith in God's finished work for us to be Holy by Son before Father through Faith in Christ's finished work
[h=3]Colossians 1:21-23[/h]Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)

[SUP]21 [/SUP]And you, that were sometime alienated and enemies in your mind by wicked works, yet now hath he reconciled [SUP]22 [/SUP]in the body of his flesh through death, to present you holy and unblameable and unreproveable in his sight: [SUP]23 [/SUP]if ye continue in the faith grounded and settled, and be not moved away from the hope of the gospel, which ye have heard, and which was preached to every creature which is under heaven; whereof I Paul am made a minister;
So are we going to stand in Faith and trust god to take away the sin that so easily besets us by trying not to sin?

 

[persNickety]

Thought this was cute:

 

[persNickety]

I'm stunned. This has been the most accurate portrayal of my personality:

"Healthy side of this wing brings a withdrawn, complex creativity. May be somewhat intellectual but have exceptional depth of feeling and insight. Very much their own person; original and idiosyncratic. Have a spiritual and aesthetic openness. Will find multiple levels of meaning to most events. May have a strong need and ability to pour themselves into artistic creations. Loners; can seem enigmatic and hard to read. Externally reserved and internally resonant. When they open up it can be sudden and total. When entranced or defensive, Fours with a 5 wing can easily feel alienated and depressed. Many have a sense of not belonging, of being from another planet. Can get lost in their own process, drown in their own ocean. Whiny - tend to ruminate and relive past experience. Prone to the emotion of shame. Air of sullen, withdrawn disappointment. May live within a private mythology of pain and loss. Can get deeply morbid and fall in love with death. "

 

[MissCris]

Under the category of "Ways to Kill About Six Hours":

-Let small children totally destroy the entire house, and then put it back together. It's an adventure, and kind of a puzzle too, see?
-Suddenly decide, for the first time EVER, that actually COOKING lunch is a good idea, and then proceed to nearly catch the entire kitchen on fire.
-Ignore your mother-in-law's phone calls, and start guessing how many minutes it will be before she tries to call again.
-Dust stuff, for the first time in...um...you know, scratch that one. Dusting is for truly desperate situations.
-Polish fingernails ten different colors.
-Consider beginning to write the Next Great American Novel, realize you have less than nothing to write about, and give up before you begin.
-Imagine how peaceful life would be without cats that attack for no reason or puke everywhere.
-Realize you've only managed to kill maybe ten minutes by sitting and thinking of ways to kill time.