I totally empathize with you on this. I will be the first to admit this process causes me to question my self esteem! I wish that it didn't, but how do you become more secure in how God created you...so that you aren't wavered by silly boys? Or the dance all together? That's what I'm trying to figure out.
At this point, I'm not even going to think about it anymore.
Que sera, sera. I think there comes a time when we get our fill of games. I figure any guy who wouldn't be intimidated by my life would have to be a guy who is bold enough to get my attention, so I'm not even going to try and pick up on subtleties anymore.
A lil cynical...maybe...but I think we can allow it too much of our thought life at times.