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well let me just start off by saying i'm brand new, i'm sure you could find that out yourselves though. I am a new servant of the lord. For the past two years, I have been very confused and kind of in disbelief about all religion/spirituality and Jesus Christ. I was raised a christian/ my whole family is christian. I kept running away from problems and espeically myself for a long time, about a month ago I had moved in with my father and stayed with him for three weeks. I left because I started having horrible anxiety and panic attacks.
The last night was the worst night for me. My dad started to pray over me and I began to feel incredibly irritable/evil/angry. This feeling terrified me because I knew it was something i'd never really felt before. I thought I was being possessed so I dropped to my knees and started screaming in tongues out of sheer desperation. I then called the ambulance and spent the night in the emergency room because I was under extreme anxiety/panic.
Ever since I came back home i've been living with my mom and stepdad. They pray for me everyday and I felt like I first gave in because they really influenced me, like im only believing because they want me to/ and I want to please them. This makes me feel pretty bad, because sometimes I feel like I don't care i'm feeling this way. I forgot everything I use to feel. Blind faith. I believe I can regain it through trust in God and Jesus, i'm just feeling afraid of giving in almost. But I truly believe I want to have a relationship with jesus once again, except better than ever. So any advice/encouragement would be very appreciated. Thank you, god bless everybody today!!!
The last night was the worst night for me. My dad started to pray over me and I began to feel incredibly irritable/evil/angry. This feeling terrified me because I knew it was something i'd never really felt before. I thought I was being possessed so I dropped to my knees and started screaming in tongues out of sheer desperation. I then called the ambulance and spent the night in the emergency room because I was under extreme anxiety/panic.
Ever since I came back home i've been living with my mom and stepdad. They pray for me everyday and I felt like I first gave in because they really influenced me, like im only believing because they want me to/ and I want to please them. This makes me feel pretty bad, because sometimes I feel like I don't care i'm feeling this way. I forgot everything I use to feel. Blind faith. I believe I can regain it through trust in God and Jesus, i'm just feeling afraid of giving in almost. But I truly believe I want to have a relationship with jesus once again, except better than ever. So any advice/encouragement would be very appreciated. Thank you, god bless everybody today!!!