I'm confused. And I'm really not sure how to handle what's been thrown my way.

[Sparky]

I'm not going to go into detail on my past, but long story short I've held in a lot of anger toward God for several years now. I've been raised in a Christian home, but I don't feel like God loves me. This afternoon I started praying. I couldn't feel him there, though. I got angry and yelled at him for awhile. I told him if he was real, and actually cared for me, he would give me a straight forward sign. Then when I was talking a little while later with one of my Christian friends, he told me he felt he needed to share a story with me. He said that he was praying for me the other night, and he asked God to show me his love. My friend said that God(in an almost audible voice) said,"why do you think I put you in her life?"

Is that God's way of showing me he's real? Or could it just be a coincidence?

 

[blue_ladybug]

God loves all of us. He loves you beyond measure. You've been so angry being mad, and so loud yelling at God, that you can't hear OR feel him. That's why he said, "BE STILL, and LISTEN for the still, small voice." You need to stop yelling, quiet down and listen. I think God is using your friend to get your attention. Let go of all your anger, turn it over to God. Ask God for forgiveness and ask him to help you forgive anyone who has hurt you. You'll feel alot better. and by the way, there are no coincidences..

 

[Sparky]

I can't let go of this anger. I've always been told that God is my heavenly father. Isn't a father suppose to protect their children? If he is my father, why would he have allowed everything that's happened to me happen? He allowed me to be molested, he's allowing me to go blind(I'm already legally blind without my glasses. But my vision is still going downhill), he hasn't been there to protect me. ._.

 

[Jeshuvan]

Well,the one thing i can tell u is real and truthful is God and his Word=Bible.U need 2 stop being lead by your feelings because they can trick or fool u.In Romans 8:38-39 it states u cant be separated from Gods love,also he loves u so much that he sent his only begotten Son Jesus Christ to die 4 u.The Bible also states that God not only loves,but he is love.U just need 2 start studying Gods Word and be lead by its truth and not your feeling,Amen.Hope this answers your question. GBU.

 

[J_davis116]

Sometimes things happen we don't understand. I didn't understand why my grandma, my one best friend, role model, mom when I didn't feel like i could talk to mine, teacher, and comforter died. She was my everything. I hated my mom for a long time for telling me she died. I didn't wanna accept it or let her go. I wasn't ready, I didn't want her to go, I didnt think it was time yet, I was selfish. When we feel anger towards God over something we don't understand were being selfish. He didn't make it happen to you just understand that. Think of a police officer. Say he's standing on the street across from you and you get robbed he's eating his dinner and doesn't notice you getting robbed. After it happens you run to him and tell him. It kills him he couldn't save you but he makes it his goal to find that man and return what he stole from you. Your angry cuz you want immediate justice an immediate solution. You blame the police and say he is responsible for you getting robbed Well 20 years later they find the man and arrest him. It's still not the same but you feel better cuz he got justice. Now back to real life. The man or woman that did that to you will get their justice give it time. Now like the cop he didn't make you get robbed he didn't even let you get robbed. Humans have free will God can't go against that so some people abuse that free will like whoever hurt you did, God sadly can't take away people's free will. He didn't let it happen he didn't make it happen he just couldn't keep it from happening. Now if that person seeks forgiveness like you they will be forgiven and you should rejoice in their salvation no matter how much anger you hold for what they've done because we should NEVER want anyone to suffer in hell for eternity even the worst criminal because it is suffering beyond imagination. This seems hard to imagine but would you want what happened to you to happen to someone else? Of course not now whoever did it is just like you. A person who needs God, even Christians need God. Don't hold anger against God for what happens. He loves you, he loves us all. What has happened cannot be undone but it can be forgiven and when you forgive your past you will find peace. As for the blindness. That's generics. Someone way long ago may have done somwrhing like got in a chemical accident and messed up the gene so Gods not letting that happen it's just nature which God can't really fix a natural thing it just kinda happens I guess. And God will provide through it don't worry just forgive the past and be free from it all. Look up the song You love me anyways by big daddy weave it will help God bless
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