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before i start,i know it is unhealthy thinking,anyway,this is something that i push away from my head quite often,it makes me not want to be here,i've actually asked a similar question not long ago,anyway,i know that thousands/millions of years ago God lived with his angles in a perfect place,made of gold,no pain,literally nothing bad,then lucifer rebelled against God,he failed and was rightly bannished from heaven- i understand all of that but where do i come in,i was born in the last decade,i've never stepped into heaven,never seen God,i'm on this earth not even by choice,i gladly accept that i will suffer while i'm here,i will get hurt,i was not born into the richest family or the best of countries or continent etc,i will face death not knowing how it looks like,i will love people,i will be hated(i accept all of that,really) my question is did i have to be in the middle of a million/billion old war(that i did not start),isn't it just enough that i have these human issues? and possibly just not exist after i die? just be the way i was before being born? i'm just me, what i can do (my ability) is not even close to the abilities of creations like angles etc did all of this have to start in the first place?