When I was suicidal, all i wanted to be was in a more stable place. After looking and going to so many things, i finally went to God and felt loved! Before I searched to be cared for by other people, and after that I finally felt like i wouldn't be a bother, but things haven't felt so good as time has gone on. Over stressing about homework, and the addiction sneaking up on me has made life hard. I don't know if anti depressant could help, I've felt like I've been going insane at times. While I've felt like I've had a good relationship with God, when I talk to other Christians, I can't help but feel like I know nothing and all i am is scum. I love talking to God about things, and giving thanks to him, but I can't help but feel like I'm a pathetic, good-for-nothing scoundrel. I say these things because I want to acknowledge that I know I am bad and I'm sorry for existing and staining the world with my presence.
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