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Hi all I just wanted to share with you kinda some stuff that has happened and like stuff that I need prayer with and assistance with.
I was born to a mom and dad but they had never married before having me. (My mom has sence became a chrisitian early in my life)
My mom says that my father never said he loved her and that makes me really sad and she says she doesnt think she is beautiful because she is 150-200 pounds overweight. I just really wish she would feel beautiful. What can I do to help her feel beautiful again?
(Im only 13 so this will be kinda shortish.)
I always had to go back and forth between father and mother and sence my father wasnt there for the first three or so years of my life I grew very attached to my mother who I had already been through a lot with. (Once she was in the hospital for a month and I had to like live with my babysitter.)
So whenever I had to go with my dad I would always cry and miss my mother to peices.
I thinks she felt so guilty because as most children sleep in there own beds at a very young age I was probably 9 or 10 when I stopped. This is something I dont really like to share because it is embarressing.
(I have to take anti anxiety medicine and melatonin so I can sleep at night.)
Whenever I was with my dad (who was still legally married but basically divorced without the papers. With a girlfreind) I would be like the average little kid who would ask for a lot of stuff in the store and they almost trained me not to ask or want for anything. Through the years he has also made rude remarks about my mom and say "Use your Gill Brain" (My mom was a boland and he was a gill.)
So sence I have been attached to my mother I have always been very sensitive and I guess she kinda rubbed off on me because I have very low self esteem and body image.
The last time I saw my father was probaably a few years ago.
My mom asked." So you wash your hands clean of your son?"
And I remember his exact words,"Yes I do."
He has sence tried to apologize but he would never admit to what he has done he would say
"Well IF I did I am sorry."
I think I have forgiven him as much as possible in my heart but I am used to staying in one house now and it is just easier not to go between houses again.
I have never really had a real girlfreind but I have grown with Christ through the years and I beleive in courting and not today's definition of dating.
So My Main Sins (Though I know no one can only have 3) are- Envy, Not Forgiving, and Lust
I am trying to work with god and prayer to remove these parasites from my life.
So I guess just read and reply to whatever catches your eye.
I was born to a mom and dad but they had never married before having me. (My mom has sence became a chrisitian early in my life)
My mom says that my father never said he loved her and that makes me really sad and she says she doesnt think she is beautiful because she is 150-200 pounds overweight. I just really wish she would feel beautiful. What can I do to help her feel beautiful again?
(Im only 13 so this will be kinda shortish.)
I always had to go back and forth between father and mother and sence my father wasnt there for the first three or so years of my life I grew very attached to my mother who I had already been through a lot with. (Once she was in the hospital for a month and I had to like live with my babysitter.)
So whenever I had to go with my dad I would always cry and miss my mother to peices.
I thinks she felt so guilty because as most children sleep in there own beds at a very young age I was probably 9 or 10 when I stopped. This is something I dont really like to share because it is embarressing.
(I have to take anti anxiety medicine and melatonin so I can sleep at night.)
Whenever I was with my dad (who was still legally married but basically divorced without the papers. With a girlfreind) I would be like the average little kid who would ask for a lot of stuff in the store and they almost trained me not to ask or want for anything. Through the years he has also made rude remarks about my mom and say "Use your Gill Brain" (My mom was a boland and he was a gill.)
So sence I have been attached to my mother I have always been very sensitive and I guess she kinda rubbed off on me because I have very low self esteem and body image.
The last time I saw my father was probaably a few years ago.
My mom asked." So you wash your hands clean of your son?"
And I remember his exact words,"Yes I do."
He has sence tried to apologize but he would never admit to what he has done he would say
"Well IF I did I am sorry."
I think I have forgiven him as much as possible in my heart but I am used to staying in one house now and it is just easier not to go between houses again.
I have never really had a real girlfreind but I have grown with Christ through the years and I beleive in courting and not today's definition of dating.
So My Main Sins (Though I know no one can only have 3) are- Envy, Not Forgiving, and Lust
I am trying to work with god and prayer to remove these parasites from my life.
So I guess just read and reply to whatever catches your eye.
