So, let's keep it simple here. I dont want to waste time arguing with any of you. I want to find points of relateability and UNIFICATION with you under the name of Christ. PLEASE UNDERSTAND, I'm not complacent like most of you. I have strong ambitions and goals, and I will call out God if I find it necessary...but if I find a means to secure a future through him, I would not have a need to hold God accountable on the lack of forward progression in my life.
All I want to know is...why have secular professionals helped me 100x more than praying to the LORD ever has? Dont tell me the LORD sent me to these people through wisdom...to me, that's a cop-out on God's part. I will not give credit to the LORD if he himself is not the source of the blessing. Does the LORD arrange for certain blessings to be a part of people's lives, or is luck genuinely a factor?
I have a hard time...allowing my heart to trust that God is a caring God who takes care of his followers. I cannot see God as a provider. I see him as an obstacle, an opponent, an enemy, a tyrant, a limiting factor in personal achievement, a bully, an oppressor, a denier of blessing. I look at God, and I see HIM as a troll (PeterJens).
Can I expect the LORD to give to me and my family if I give to him first, or is he forever going to run me in circles, and throw more crap into my life. If he's there to help me, I give him 100% of all I have. If he's trolling me and leading me on a goose chase, what does that say about the faith?