as for the first question are the lost welcome? yes most certainly for all have a right to hear of jesus and be saved,as to you not wanting to be christian im not shocked at all ,after all I didnt truly believe in god and accept jesus as my lord and savior til about 2 to 4 years ago and I still remember how it can be to feel troubled and conflicted as likewise we all have been lost at some point you aren't just born a christian praising god automatically ,you have to choose for yourself what you desire of your life first you go through life just being led by the hand and to do as your told not as you believe then later you can choose what you believe in freely for god would wish for noone to be forced into believing in him nor serving him for what use is a servant who has not truely chosen a master and by this I mean pulling one up to an alter or badgering someone til they are baptized is not doing god's work I have been put through that and it is wrong and pointless,all of us have a choice of what we believe and it is to be respected and it is not strange to go to a christian church when you don't want to be a christian as I said before we believed in anything we were children willing to believe anything so whatever belief you have you can keep it and there is no rush you can come to god whenever, he is patient or not this doesn't mean I wish you ill but rather its better you decide for yourself before you think on a change in beliefs for I wouldn't want you going back and forth stumbling in the darkness and as the bible states one cannot serve two masters and better to be hot or cold in spirit for one than to be luke warm and have no standing at all basically you can only do all you can for one whom you worship for if you were to try other wise neither would have your full support and thus you betraying what you believe so go,feel free to explore this world of beliefs to your hearts content but beware you have to make a PERMANENT choice before THE END comes everyone does and that is not just limited to us humans angels have had to face this truth too.