Mental Issues (Godly advice plz)

[Aqua_Girl09]

um. . . . . .i've recently come to realize that i'm not all that striaght in the head. >_< i just always assumed that everyone thought the way i did and that what i was thinking and doing was normal . . . .turns out i'm ALL wrong .lol.

i've been looking up bi-polar and that seems almost exactly what i have except i don't really have the manic depression. if i do it doesn't last more then a day or so.

I talked to my pastor's about it and they said thats an attack of the devil and i should pray about it and ask God to guide me. and some days i feel like i can TOTALLY fight this and do well, other days though i wanna do something stupid like drive until the road ends or go running until i throw up, or through everything in my room away and start from scratch or some other totally stupid thing.

so i guess i'm asking for advice on how to handle this. should i go see a doctor about it? or talk to my pastor's more about it? is there a book i could read? I'd really love some Godly advice.

 

[TD14]

Coming from someone who is bipolar sounds like you certainly have some signs of it. I tend to get the crazy ideas when i'm manic. A while back i wanted to see how fast i could make my truck go. Thankfully i mentioned this to some people and they kindly talked some sense into me. So i would talk to a doctor. What you want is a psychiatrist if you are seeking medication they can write for medication. However a counselor of some sort helps too and helps the psychiatrist to get an idea of the whole situation. Also your pastors to an extent are right praying is a good thing, it can help you to center yourself. I may get some flack for this but from my experience with my issues prayer alone can't manage bipolar. Bipolar is a very complex thing within the mind and usually it needs medication to be controlled. Hope this helps you. Feel free to pm me any time just to vent or whatever. One thing i have learned is having someone to talk your thoughts out with can keep you from doing a lot of things you may regret. Also the manic depression periods don't have to last long. Sometimes mine last for a few days others for weeks. Most recently it lasted almost 2 or so months. I was a mess. It wasn't until last Saturday i went out with a friend and i just suddenly cared again about myself. Think because this girl makes me feel really happy and safe. Again hope this helps and i'm here, not sure how much i can be of help but even if it's just letting you vent and bounce things off of i'm glad to do it. Bipolar or any mental issue is a beast to fight alone and it helps when you have support.

 

[GOD_IS_LOVE]

. . . . i just always assumed that everyone thought the way i did and that what i was thinking and doing was normal . . . .turns out i'm ALL wrong .lol.

And who's to say what's normal...? What is normal for me may be abnormal for you. We are all different and it's normal to see things differently, as long as we don't harm ourselves or others.
My thoughts on this are that if you really want to find something wrong with you you may succeed.
Why don't you focus on things that make you happy and give you a feeling of normality and build yourself up in those areas? In the end, what we feed is what we'll become.

 

[Aqua_Girl09]

And who's to say what's normal...? What is normal for me may be abnormal for you. We are all different and it's normal to see things differently, as long as we don't harm ourselves or others.
My thoughts on this are that if you really want to find something wrong with you you may succeed.
Why don't you focus on things that make you happy and give you a feeling of normality and build yourself up in those areas? In the end, what we feed is what we'll become.

thats exatly how i felt! after talking to my pastors i was like FORGET THIS! i can fight this and be normal! i'm NOT about to let something like this control my life. . . . . .and then one day i woke up and just didn't feel like fighting, and it was days of getting worse and worse. ( i think its because i've been having WAY too much time to myself to think about all of the above.)

sometimes i feel like I CAN DO THIS and totally fight it and i'm fine and then others i'm ready to do something off the wall cause i can and all my friends are looking at me like i'm crazy. and i seriously think that its getting worse. i mean when i think about it, this TOTALLY exlains why i did the things i did back in high school and why my personality changed so quickly, back and forth, back and forth, . . . . .

you're right about the thinking though. i'm sure that every one has their own way of thinking (my dad brought that up just now SIGN FROM GOD. lol. but i guess its the fact that i put those weird thoughts into actions that get me.)

 

[Aqua_Girl09]

TD14 are you on medication? or are you trying to fight it on your own? and hows it all coming together. i hear so many stories of people who hate their medication and just want to come off cause it makes them feel worse, or start thinking they're fine without it just to relapse. i guess those who are having a just fine time don't talk much about it. >_>

 

[FrankensteinGirls]

I have bipolar disorder as well. It may be a good idea to talk to your doctor and just tel them of your concerns and counseling can be really helpful even if you don't have bipolar disorder.

 

[Jordache]

You may be bi-polar or you may have another sort of disorder. I would say that you need to see a dr who can prescribe a medication for you. I had similar symptoms but I was diagnosed severely clinically depressed. My desires to do crazy things came out of me needing to be loved, self-hate, and other problems. You cannot fight this alone. You need God on your side for one. You need a community of believes who will walk with you, and you need a therapist. First part is easy. God is always on your side. Second is harder because you have to look for trustworthy, mature, and wise people who can be good friends. Then you need someone with a medical prospective. Also, be careful of diagnosing yourself. You do need an official diagnosis.

 

[AnandaHya]

um. . . . . .i've recently come to realize that i'm not all that striaght in the head. >_< i just always assumed that everyone thought the way i did and that what i was thinking and doing was normal . . . .turns out i'm ALL wrong .lol.

yes that is what people tell me but I still think that I'm sane and everyone else is crazy.

i've been looking up bi-polar and that seems almost exactly what i have except i don't really have the manic depression. if i do it doesn't last more then a day or so.

ummm .... I don't look up the symptoms, I don't want to know my psychosis because I don't think it would help me deal with it, personally. I know why I'm messed up but I deal by the grace of God.

I talked to my pastor's about it and they said thats an attack of the devil and i should pray about it and ask God to guide me.

did he say that Satan even tempted Jesus in the desert? that even Jesus wept?

and some days i feel like i can TOTALLY fight this and do well, other days though i wanna do something stupid like drive until the road ends or go running until i throw up, or through everything in my room away and start from scratch or some other totally stupid thing.

so i guess i'm asking for advice on how to handle this. should i go see a doctor about it? or talk to my pastor's more about it? is there a book i could read? I'd really love some Godly advice.

book to read?

the Bible.

how to handle it?

Pray and find good friends and focus on things other than yourself and your problems. I have found keeping busy helps me.

should you see a doctor?

sure if you feel moved to. pray about it...

 

[Ugly]

And who's to say what's normal...? What is normal for me may be abnormal for you. We are all different and it's normal to see things differently, as long as we don't harm ourselves or others.
My thoughts on this are that if you really want to find something wrong with you you may succeed.
Why don't you focus on things that make you happy and give you a feeling of normality and build yourself up in those areas? In the end, what we feed is what we'll become.

Trying to fight against a mental disorder with happy thoughts doesn't work. Its my experience people who say that usually have absolutely no experience in the matter. Do to a lack of understanding they have no clue what a person with a mental disorder is going through and therefore are unable to give any solid advice.
I suffered depression twenty years, no amount of 'just think good thoughts' can change a person with depression like that. It may help a person with 'situational depression', as in someone who is not normally depressed, but do to a circumstance, becomes depressed.


To Aqua... go see a doctor. Self diagnosis, whether its mental, or physical health, is never a good idea. Its good to look things up, see if there is a possible concern, but save the actual diagnosis for a trained professional before labeling yourself anything.

 

[TD14]

TD14 are you on medication? or are you trying to fight it on your own? and hows it all coming together. i hear so many stories of people who hate their medication and just want to come off cause it makes them feel worse, or start thinking they're fine without it just to relapse. i guess those who are having a just fine time don't talk much about it. >_>

Well. My issues started when i was about 9 with depression and paranoia. From 9 to 16 i went without meds and had counseling here and there. Basically just went it alone. 16 a month before my 17th birthday i had a breakdown. I had been diagnosed with fibromyalgia which is a life long chronic pain condition that basically has changed my life. That summer i went on 4 different meds for it and then i started working with my brother. That was tipping point. I had a breakdown and it was bad and ugly. I went on an anti depressant then and had been on one since this time last year. Finally they diagnosed me bipolar and i have been on different meds since then. Currently i'm on a good mix of meds. Basically you just gotta try meds until you find the right setup for your body. It also gets tricky with me because for a while i was on a pain killer, muscle relaxer, anti-inflamatory, and one other med as well as mental meds. Had hip surgery and pain went away so i got off them so that affected the bipolar meds. Now that pain is back and i'm getting back on meds i gotta watch to make sure my bipolar meds keep working. My best advice is turn to a doctor, research, and turn to people who understand mental conditions such as those who live with them. Also remember just because you may have one don't change who you are and you are still just as good of a person. Again my pm box is always open.

 

[jb]

um. . . . . .i've recently come to realize that i'm not all that striaght in the head. >_< i just always assumed that everyone thought the way i did and that what i was thinking and doing was normal . . . .turns out i'm ALL wrong .lol.

i've been looking up bi-polar and that seems almost exactly what i have except i don't really have the manic depression. if i do it doesn't last more then a day or so.

I talked to my pastor's about it and they said thats an attack of the devil and i should pray about it and ask God to guide me. and some days i feel like i can TOTALLY fight this and do well, other days though i wanna do something stupid like drive until the road ends or go running until i throw up, or through everything in my room away and start from scratch or some other totally stupid thing.

so i guess i'm asking for advice on how to handle this. should i go see a doctor about it? or talk to my pastor's more about it? is there a book i could read? I'd really love some Godly advice.

It is MOST important that you go along to your Doctor ((your family doctor, who know's you to some degree) and get yourself checked out, just to make sure that you have no recognised mental illness...

If it proves that you have no kind of mental illness, then get your (christian) friends to pray for you (so that you are strengthened) and have time in fellowshiping with your friends (hang out with them and have fun), don't spend a lot of time on your own, which would let your mind wander onto this problem with the result that you will end up think all kinds of things about it. If you feel under pressure, don't spend long times in praying and Bible study as this can make this kind of problem worse. Listening (and singing along to) to spiritual hymns/choruses can be helpful, or just listening to secular music that you like. You can also get CD's with the Bible being read out on which can be useful if you find you can't concentrate on reading your Bible...

Rest in Jesus, He will bring you through this. 2Cor 1v3,4, Heb 13v5 (2nd half of verse).

Yahweh Shalom...

 

[Aqua_Girl09]

Thank you mucho for all the help! ^_^ , guess i should go ahead and see a psychiatrist or at least talk to a therapist to help me out with my thoughts. ^_^ this week i've been alone a lot more the usual so i'm like OUT OF MY MIND. lol, it helped me realize that i REALLY REALLY need to keep my mind on something and not just let it run away with any old kinda thought.

I'll keep talking with my pastors though and writing down how i feel and what i'm thinking so they'll take me seriously and not just think its no big deal ( i try to hide it a lot) and also so that when i finally DO get around to seeing a psychiatrist (its complicated with the whole insurance and money thing, i'm a broke college student) then they'll have more to work with. ^_^

God Bless you guys!

 

[Elizabeth619]

Ummmm, ok. First off, diagnosing yourself with a mental illness is a bad idea. Everyone shows some type of symptom of a mental or personality disorder and also you're regualr family physician is NOT the type of doctor that needs to diagnose a psychosis.

If you seriously think something is "wrong" see a mental health doctor. Too many people are put on meds when they do not really need them. Medication does help some, but not all. Also, bi poliar disorder is more than ups an downs. Also, about 20% of patients who have bi polar disorder cannot be controlled with medication.

When it comes to mental health it can be a serious thing. It is easy for me or anything to sit behind a computer screen and give you advice, but in all seriousness see a psychiatrist. They will give you a proper psychological evaluation to help determine if there is something abnormal.

Also, pray and reading the bible, does help but don't think that counseling and medication is a bad thing. All these things can work together. People are there to help you, but PLEASE don't read up on psychological symptoms and think you are bi polar or have something else. Reading that junk will make you nuts, and paranoid. Which is a whole new different type of psychosis. Believe me, I was a psych major in college. By the eng of my second semester I conviced myself i was a bi polar schizo with multiple personality disorder which narcissistic tendencies.... turns out I am actually just a normal chick with mild anxiety...and I do take medication for that lol.

 

[barukhmalachi]

Some things are spiritual battles but some things are just natutal, physical occurances. Its not nessessarily satan. Jesus already paid for our healing, by his stripes we are healed, but we have to accept it, receive it and claim it. It is also important to renew our minds daily and we do this by studying his word and having a relationship with jesus. If you start feeling weird or ancy or whatever, start reading the bible before your mood gets out of hand. This puts your mind on god and not the world or us and our issues. This helps me. I get a racing mind sometimes and can't focus on any one thought. This helps me get back to a peacefull state of mind.

 

[goth4god]

I totally feel you on this, Aqua! I have some pretty crazy/disturbing thoughts that I don't think are normal, and I deal with depression. I'll be praying for you, and I am here if you need to talk! =]