Hi,
I would love to encourage you.
- I love the story of Rahab in the old testament. Rahab was a prostitute in Jericho. When the Israelites came out of the desert God told them to spy out the land. So they were in Jericho doing their spying when the the Jerichoians (hehe) found out their were spies in the city. She hid them and when the time came for them to take the city, she was spared. She wasn't just spared, she married an Israelite, was the mother of Boaz, who was the line of Jesus. God used a former prostitute in the birth line of Jesus.
- And what about Abraham. Romans 4 says Abraham was so awesome and justified by his faith. Genesis tells a different story of Abraham's doubt, how he let his wife be kidnapped twice, how he had a child to another woman; and yet God used him to Birth the line of Israel.
- King David murders Uriah, Bathsheba's wife, then take her as his wife. God not only makes their son Solomon king, David by the end of his life is called A man after God's own heart.
- Paul of the New Testament killed Christians until Christ found him and made him one of the world most amazing evangelists.
- And Peter, he denied Christ 3 times. Not just denied him, but called a curse on himself in the process, and what does God do. Loves him and asks him to care for the new Christians of the world.
I bring all these people up, sister, because they are all the heroes of our faith. But like us, they all did the worst things imaginable. Jesus doesn't care. He died for all sins, not just the ones you do before you knew him, but any you'll ever do. He loves you so much!!!
Whenever the Devil reminds you of your failures, remember again how great our God is that he can turn a prostitute into a woman of the line of Jesus, a murder and adulterer into a king after God's won heart, a murderer of Christians into an evangelist, and a man who denied Christ into an Apostle.
If he can do that for them, he can do it for you
I love you little sister, and Jesus loves you so much more!!!