God's sweet child, that is who you are, I wish I could talk to you personally, and help keep you encouraged that God is on your side. and to know that you can't do nothing within your self, but God will as you trust him, he will do it for you. This is what I have learned in my walk with the Lord, " If he don't do it-- It wont get done" because when we try to change something we have come so use to doing, it is very hard and for some it is impossible to stop. so God will give you the strength and the understanding to stop. and he will keep you. My sister you want to know the greatest control we can have over life, is not having it by giving it all to God. if you can do that then he will do the rest. see there is thing that the devil has caused you to do to yourself, and his lie to you is that it give you a sense of control. but it is a false reality, and strong confusion from the enemy of yous soul, because it is not you having control but Satan having control over you. you know what is the hardest thing that is for christians to do? it is to not do what satan want us to do, and then to make our will the same as God's will. so I would sugest that you not worry about it as you trust that God is going to take away all your promblems, even what you see your parents do, he is more than able and gracefully willing to help your family. as you pray for you stand in the gap for them as well. you have the power in the name of Christ Jesus to bind, rebuke, and cast the devil out of your family's life and most defently your's. start telling the devil to leave you alone, and that he has no right to you, and he will not no longer make you cut yourself or anything that will hurt you. do the same for you mom and dad, and for your ex, and keep yourself from sining, old and new. that you will walk in the power of the Holy Spirit of God that dwells in you. stand on the Word of God, and know that it is a sword in your hand to defeat the devil for all who you pray for.... Speak the Word of God to yourself in all yuor situations and that of those whom you love. and it will bring light where there is darkness and it will bring Godly life to where there is spiritual death.. and the lives of those who you are praying for will be blessed, and that includes you. you are stronger then you think, with the Lord working for you and not against you, you can do all things in Christ Jesus who strengthen you. I am praying for you, and your family and your ex, you all will be alright for God, the living God is with you.... Smile for your life as you know it is about to change. In the name of Jesus..... pray in the name of Christ Jesus, fight the devil who want you and your family to perish, in the name of Jesus... you have athourity over all spirits... make them obey who your are, a precious daughter of the living God, the redeemed of the Lord, you are a princess to the King of kings, you have the same power of God over the devil,,,,,, I challeng you to use it. and watch what God do, just watch,
I love you, but God loves you sooo much more..... God bless you. all in the Holy name of Christ Jesus,,,, Amen,