A different type of sexual sin

[eats_mice]

So this is really awkward, but I figure this is a good place to start.

I know I can beat this, but I feel like God has been telling me to tell other people about it.

Since I was a young kid, I have been addicted to diapers. I have wanted to wear them, and I have thought about them often. Whenever someone says the word 'diaper', my ears perk up. I had a camper once who wore pull-ups at night, and while everyone was gone, I went into his suitcase just to look at them.

A couple months ago I found some depends in my parents' bedroom, and I wore them while I was alone in the house, and at night.

I think I'm on my way to being freed from this, but I think I'll have to tell one of my friends about it. I don't know if I could do that, cuz they'll think I'm some weird-o pedophile, or something. Sometimes I wish I was addicted to porn instead, cuz at least that's easier to talk about.

It's getting in the way of my friendship with Jesus, and I'm tired of it.

Thanks for listening.

 

[Blain]

I honestly could not be prouder of you for having the guts to come out and say this, you are one amazing dude

 

[nogard]

Oh I've read articles about that before as well as other unusual interests such as feet or underwear. If I remember correctly, it stipulated that people have more problems with addictions when it comes to these taboo attractions because of their forbidden nature and the shame and guilt that comes with them. I'm glad your reaching out about this as it is definitely not something you want to try to fight alone. It may not be a bad idea to go as far as seek out confidential therapy for this. I wish you the best.

 

[letti]

You have guts to admit this no judgment passed from me,but is it really sexual or something different all together like missing infancy.

 

[zaoman32]

Yeah, like everyone said you got guts. This is a step in the right direction, but honestly, you're going to need to confess it to someone face to face if you really want to deal with it. Just be careful that the person you can tell is someone you can trust. And not everyone needs to know.

 

[kenisyes]

There are several hundred such sexual responses categorized by therapists. The most common is probably bondage, and shoe fetishes are high on the list, but diapers is right up there with them. Since these responses do not cause harm, like pedophilia does, they are not talked about much, except by therapists and police officers who sometimes encounter related prostitution activities. The best theory is that sexual response preference develops from subconscious reaction to social experiences at age 7 or so, when the human sex drive turns back on after going dormant prior to age 12 months. If this theory is correct, you will not likely outgrow this response until you are very old (barring a miracle of course). We have discussed related matters in these threads, and the best opinion is that as long as there is no harm, and love is expressed, sex between husband and wife may take any form, even engaging in such roleplay.

 

[Nautilus]

props on coming out about this if you are looking to change. On the other hand there are plenty of people out there with fetishes of their own and for the majority they arent bad. Just dont let them overtake your life.

 

[starfield]

Like any addiction, it can be conquered with self-discipline. Step one to overcoming addiction is acknowledging it which you have done. Now summon the willpower and take all necessary steps to stop.

Cheers.

 

[AgeofKnowledge]

Oh! Look at this post. Please provide supporting documentation. Thank you.

There are several hundred such sexual responses categorized by therapists. The most common is probably bondage, and shoe fetishes are high on the list, but diapers is right up there with them. Since these responses do not cause harm, like pedophilia does, they are not talked about much, except by therapists and police officers who sometimes encounter related prostitution activities. The best theory is that sexual response preference develops from subconscious reaction to social experiences at age 7 or so, when the human sex drive turns back on after going dormant prior to age 12 months. If this theory is correct, you will not likely outgrow this response until you are very old (barring a miracle of course). We have discussed related matters in these threads, and the best opinion is that as long as there is no harm, and love is expressed, sex between husband and wife may take any form, even engaging in such roleplay.

 

[flight316]

Ok you like wearing diapers that's not so bad. What can that hurt. You mention sexual sin. What's sexual about what you are doing? Did you leave something out?

 

[flight316]

By the way I would suggest that you stop eating mice. Just kidding, eat what you want. Its a free country.

 

[eats_mice]

Diapers induce sexual arousal which can lead to masturbation. Besides that, it is not God's plan or design for me, but an object of the flesh, an idol. I know that God is enough for me, and nothing else can satisfy. No, i cannot beat this through sheer will power. If I could, I would have gotten over sometime in the last 22 years. Only through the power of the Holy Spirit can I find the strength. Thank you everyone for your support.

Also, I only eat mice on special occasions.

 

[kenisyes]

Oh! Look at this post. Please provide supporting documentation. Thank you.

Sorry, I thought your PM this morning was referring to a different thread we are both posting in. Wikipedia is not the best, but the list is fairly impressive (I count 92 root links to other articles): List of paraphilias - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia The list is alphabetical. Each has a link, and that will take you to responsible, non-pornographic sites through the online references Wikipedia provides. The OP refers to "diaper fetishism". You may need to look for quite a while to get the whole total, as some of these are unbrella terms, and the links explain the subdivisions. There are links to pages in the DSM, which establishes that each is a recognized behavior sometimes causing the person to desire therapy. Under "Sadomasochism" (supposedly the most common of the list) you will see extensive subdivisions on forensic classifications, as I spoke of when the police become involved. You will also see narrative of current diagnostic and prognostic information, as is used by therapists.

 

[ThriftShopPop]

Sorry, I thought your PM this morning was referring to a different thread we are both posting in. Wikipedia is not the best, but the list is fairly impressive (I count 92 root links to other articles): List of paraphilias - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia The list is alphabetical. Each has a link, and that will take you to responsible, non-pornographic sites through the online references Wikipedia provides. The OP refers to "diaper fetishism". You may need to look for quite a while to get the whole total, as some of these are unbrella terms, and the links explain the subdivisions. There are links to pages in the DSM, which establishes that each is a recognized behavior sometimes causing the person to desire therapy. Under "Sadomasochism" (supposedly the most common of the list) you will see extensive subdivisions on forensic classifications, as I spoke of when the police become involved. You will also see narrative of current diagnostic and prognostic information, as is used by therapists.

wikipedia huh...?

Eats, counseling is a great thing to do. I have went for a variety of things...they are confidential and they wont judge you at all. Just, before you spill your guts to just anyone, try a few out first so you can get the best connection and counseling for you. I think this is more common then you think. Fear drives us into isolation....but it can be brought into light. Once you deal with the root cause, you can then deal with the fascination of it all. We all have our secrets, our deep dark holes and frankly it is easy to splurge to a bunch of strangers online. There is that lack of eye contact, body language, less relational. Find a good counselor and work your way through things.

 

[Esta]

What is seriously weird. Diapers? Really?
.....and the award goes to....
I'll pray for you though. Love you.

 

[Missachu]

I have a bad/weird fetish too and I find that just staying away from it and not thinking about it help alot. And I mean AT ALL. Don't go around babies, places where they sell diapers, talk or think about it. But then again, it's easy for me because I always get over things quickly.

 

[kenisyes]

I feel bad that I cannot provide solid medical evidence for the difficulty in getting over these things. Let's ask a question. Does any CCer know someone who actually got over a fetish before they were 50? I know of none. Even the criminal literature dealing with convicted fetish felons suggests that cures are very rare.

 

[Nautilus]

I have my own things as well though mine require a partner and suffice to say i can put them aside till marriage. It will just be one of many things we talk about before that point. I have never seen anything within the bible about these things done in a proper setting.

 

[eats_mice]

I have no money for counseling right now... But I have a great Counselor, the Holy Spirit.

Staying away from them? That would mean not going to church, wal-mart, a gas station, or just about anywhere. I think I'll find a more practical way to handle this. I'm confident that I can overcome the temptation the next time it occurs. I have received some encouragement on this in a dream. Yes, it will be a continuing struggle, maybe all my life, but it won't control me.

 

[Jordache]

First I am proud of you for spilling your guts. Shame is what makes this the worst. The desire itself isn't particularly harmful unless, of course, it is a result of some undealt with issues as I imagine it is. I would face my concern more towards what drives you to this particular fetish. Discover the root and attack or from there.