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lil_christian

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I'm out of green tea right now. But I'm going grocery shopping tomorrow. I JUST ran out of lemons, too, which I've been using. Thanks Green!!
 
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arwen83

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I don't understand boys. I had very short notice that the girl whose mattress that I was borrowing is coming tomorrow morning to pick it up. So it means that I'll be sleeping on my memory foam and pillow topper on the carpet for awhile. So while I was moving some stuff around in my room, I noticed that some spiders had come out to play -.- And I'm out of spider raid so off to walmart. By this time, my makeup isn't looking good. Its crazy humid out here in the city. Good bye foundation and eyeliner. Not pretty. Anywho, I get to walmart and I had two guys smile at me. Like the 'you're pretty' smiles. I'm sweatin, on a mission to destroy the spiders, my hair is in a messy ponytail, little trace of makeup and I'm getting smiles?! I don't understand boys.

PS. This thread should be re-named the Arwen's Daily Vent and News Journal: because she doesn't have a husband to vent to lol.
 

CatHerder

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...crazy life lately. So much has been happening.

...been trying to get my financial ducks in a row so I can buy a place

...a new job may or may not be starting for me, back in music education - if it does, it will start slowly and build up from there. I am thankful that I have a job where I can reduce my days to 4 a week to accommodate this. I am both excited and cautious

....the Lord may or may not be leading my out of my church...last week during a prayer, I looked up at the congregation. There was great sadness within me. I realized that it felt like mourning - If I am to leave, people will think it's due to recent politics within the church. It's not. I don't feel that I need to correct anyone's thinking.

...I seem to love God more, but am disillusioned with people more these days...even (especially?) with those who claim to know Him.

...yet another opportunity has come up. By October, I'll know whether I'll be music director in a church downtown or not. I don't know if that is why He seems to be preparing me to leave my church. Every time I think I know what He is doing, He turns things around in a wonderful way that I never would have imagined, so I am not about to second guess Him now.

I am confident that He will open and close the appropriate doors and otherwise lead me. I pray that my eyes and ears will be open, and that my heart will be obedient.
 

CatHerder

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I don't understand boys. I had very short notice that the girl whose mattress that I was borrowing is coming tomorrow morning to pick it up. So it means that I'll be sleeping on my memory foam and pillow topper on the carpet for awhile. So while I was moving some stuff around in my room, I noticed that some spiders had come out to play -.- And I'm out of spider raid so off to walmart. By this time, my makeup isn't looking good. Its crazy humid out here in the city. Good bye foundation and eyeliner. Not pretty. Anywho, I get to walmart and I had two guys smile at me. Like the 'you're pretty' smiles. I'm sweatin, on a mission to destroy the spiders, my hair is in a messy ponytail, little trace of makeup and I'm getting smiles?! I don't understand boys.

PS. This thread should be re-named the Arwen's Daily Vent and News Journal: because she doesn't have a husband to vent to lol.
it was the ponytail. We like gals with ponytails. Guys also like gals who can just throw on something and GO while still looking halfway decent (I'll bet you looked a lot better than you think you did.). If your hair were perfectly coiffed and your makeup was neatly put on and your skin was not glistening from running around in the humidity, the guys would not have looked twice at you, passing you off as "high maintenance" even though you would have felt more confident about your appearance.

hmmmmm......maybe this deserves its own thread.
 
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arwen83

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I found where to put the transmission oil in my car. 10:30pm I am under the hood, my neighbors must think I am nuts. Success! You'd think there would be a cap, like every other fluid but no, right into the dipstick tubey thingy. Gunk Transmedic fluid, you might do absolutely nothing to temporarily help my shifting issues. But hey, couldn't hurt, you help with other things.
 

AsifinPassing

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I don't understand boys. I had very short notice that the girl whose mattress that I was borrowing is coming tomorrow morning to pick it up. So it means that I'll be sleeping on my memory foam and pillow topper on the carpet for awhile. So while I was moving some stuff around in my room, I noticed that some spiders had come out to play -.- And I'm out of spider raid so off to walmart. By this time, my makeup isn't looking good. Its crazy humid out here in the city. Good bye foundation and eyeliner. Not pretty. Anywho, I get to walmart and I had two guys smile at me. Like the 'you're pretty' smiles. I'm sweatin, on a mission to destroy the spiders, my hair is in a messy ponytail, little trace of makeup and I'm getting smiles?! I don't understand boys.

PS. This thread should be re-named the Arwen's Daily Vent and News Journal: because she doesn't have a husband to vent to lol.

P.P.S. - I'm consistantly telling my female friends irl (or not online, however you want to put it...) that 'Natural Beauty' is WAY more attractive than 'Artifical Beauty'.

*gasp* You mean you're tell me that less is more when it comes to makeup, jewelry, and all the fixin's of finery?!?!

Ah..yeah, I am!
 
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arwen83

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P.P.S. - I'm consistantly telling my female friends irl (or not online, however you want to put it...) that 'Natural Beauty' is WAY more attractive than 'Artifical Beauty'.

*gasp* You mean you're tell me that less is more when it comes to makeup, jewelry, and all the fixin's of finery?!?!

Ah..yeah, I am!
Yeah but, I have a bit of acne, and pale skin and have some darkness under my eyes. Without foundation and blush, I have been asked many of times if I am sick. I'm not trying to be excessive, but covering up imperfections so I don't give off the 'leukemia patient' look.
 
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MissCris

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I am completely destroying the world right now. RIGHT. NOW.

...I messed with the settings on some electronical, technologic-type items around the house.

We'll never fix it now! Muahaha!

I shouldn't be allowed to be by myself without adult supervision.
 

CatHerder

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I forgot to mention that my friend and I performed two compositions of mine. French horn duets - great fun!

And I've been practicing the piano more - partly because I want to have some more pieces under my belt, and partly because I want to model good practice habits for my kids; they are too talented to not practice (I know - every parent says that sort of thing about their kids!)

I set the timer for 20 minutes and devote that time to one piece - I am currently working on three, but I choose only one to work on, then work on one or both of the others for a 20 minute session later in the day. I talked to another piano teacher friend about this and she does the same thing, but she only works on one piece at a time. Though I would progress faster on a particular piece, I couldn't do this; I need the variety. I am working on Debussey's Pour le piano (the prelude and the sarabande), and a valse - impromptu by Reger, three very different pieces though the two by Debussey are from the same suite.

This is getting my kids to practice more. My youngest was actually waiting for the 20 to be up so she could have a "turn."
 

DuchessAimee

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I had my CT scan with contrast done today. It was such an interesting feeling as the iodine was pushed into my system. It felt warm and harsh and foreign. It was a nice distraction from thinking about why I needed the scan in the first place. I know what they're looking for and I want them to nix the biopsy. Just cut it out and be done. I'm ready for this to be done.
 
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CatHerder

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I had my CT scan with contrast done today. It was such an interesting feeling as the iodine was pushed into my system. It felt warm and harsh and foreign. It was a nice distraction from thinking about why I needed the scan in the first place. I know what they're looking for and I want them to nix the biopsy. Just cut it out and be done. I'm ready for this to be done.
I had to have a few of those myself. I didn't mind them, except for my last one, which was needed after an abnormal X-ray. For no apparent reason, I had a panic attack during the CT.

I understand your wanting them to "cut it out and be done," but barring super aggressive growth where time is of the utmost importance, it's best for them to exhaust the least invasive options first. I know you know this, duh. I'm still praying for you.
 

AsifinPassing

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Yeah but, I have a bit of acne, and pale skin and have some darkness under my eyes. Without foundation and blush, I have been asked many of times if I am sick. I'm not trying to be excessive, but covering up imperfections so I don't give off the 'leukemia patient' look.
I understand, but I think you're beautiful just the way you are. Hey, wait...that's a good song queue!!

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [OFFICIAL VIDEO] - YouTube
 

Liamson

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I'm leaving the Country Saturday. Exciting, yet strangely enough, back to normal.

I probably won't be around here much at all until like January. But, I'll be back eventually.
 
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MidniteWelder

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The Lord be with you and watch over you Brother Liamson
 

homwardbound

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Why? Because had I succeeded in getting myself killed, there would only be one moment of sorrow, and another moment of passing, and another moment of healing, and so on and so on. Life would go on with one less person to have to WORRY & think about. I am self aware to know enough that I haven't been a good brother, uncle, son, grandson, employee, and sometimes a friend. I can see the burden and bitterness in my family's eyes well enough that I wish I could take it away. I got sick of being a constant screw up to you. I got tired of messing everything up. I got tired of getting in your way. I got tired of knowing that I can't do anything right. I just wanted to lighten up the load by removing myself, because I've messed up long enough to know that I'm just dead weight. I understand that NO ONE is perfect, but I can clearly see that I seem to be a constant bother to nearly everyone I come in contact with.. I try, I fail, I disappoint. This seems to be the constant cycle I gain from people. I can't work like the others. I can't be strong. I'm not as confident as them. *sigh* I judge myself 10x before anyone else could... I tried to kill myself because I'm not who I want to be, and I'm not nearly as close to the picture of the "good man" standard they place me on.
[h=3]Luke 18:11-14[/h]New King James Version (NKJV)

[SUP]11 [/SUP]The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, ‘God, I thank You that I am not like other men—extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this tax collector. [SUP]12 [/SUP]I fast twice a week; I give tithes of all that I possess.’ [SUP]13 [/SUP]And the tax collector, standing afar off, would not so much as raise his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast, saying, ‘God, be merciful to me a sinner!’ [SUP]14 [/SUP]I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other; for everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.”
 

homwardbound

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Over the past few months I've been learning to be OK with not knowing everything, and with being imprecise. I want to know everything relevant to my life or interests, and I want to be right about it all. But that will probably never happen. But that's alright. Even if I make errors, and I will, the correct things I do will out-weigh the errors and mitigate any effect they have. Life is also full of imprecision. Just imagine making a sandwich at a fast food shop, or being a farmer. You don't get exact numbers, yet life goes on just as well. Whether an assignment is handed in at 4:00 pm or 4:01 pm is irrelevant. The work's still done, the credits are still given.

I am moving away from being obsessively detail oriented and perfectionistic. I wonder what I'm moving toward, then?
rest in God through trust in God and will accomplish through trust in God much more than ever thought imaginable. for it will be God that does it through you, as you rest in God, yet work harder than you ever thought possible, with a rest seeing it is not you that is doing it even though it appears to others that it is you, when it id God through you
A little God-quill so we can rest medicine
 
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MissCris

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I'm leaving the Country Saturday. Exciting, yet strangely enough, back to normal.
Running from the law? It's all good...sometimes things happen and we just gotta hot-foot it outta the country...

No, really, um...have a good trip? Yep.
 
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MissCris

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The leaves are starting to fall off the trees. The evenings are getting chilly. The onions and potatoes and carrots are almost ready to pull. The deer will be back to trample through and poo in my yard soon.

Good riddance, stupid summer. Take your 100 degree days and stick 'em in your ear. 'Tis time for boots and jeans and hoodies!

(I've learned recently that the number one reason I resent summer time is because I can't get tan. Oh, and June bugs.)
 

Fenner

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This week I've been helping my Sister and her family look for a new home to rent. Her landlord has scammed her, it's a long story but it was a rent to own situation and he pulled the rug out from under their feet. He told her that they needed to move and expected her to have a new place by Thursday because that's when he called and started harassing them. There is now a lawyer involved and 3 good people looking for a new place to live because someone decided to be dishonest. It's been a rough week. I found two houses for them to look at. One they like and I hope they are able to rent it.

My sister is the sweetest person I know, she's also the most trusting person I know. I had to be frank with her and her husband this week and tell them they need to start putting their guards up a little. This is the second time my sister has been scammed and lost money. My brother in law says they are trying to be good Christians, I said this doesn't involve believing everything you hear and not having a lawyer review a contract before you sign it. Not a good idea. Trust me when I say this, there are bad people in this world who don't care if you're nice, a Christian a veteran an elderly person, a nun a priest or Mother Theresa, they want your money and they want to be dishonest and don't give a darn how it affects you.

In a nutshell, watch your back and seek a lawyer before you sign a contract.
 
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GreenNnice

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I'm out of green tea right now. But I'm going grocery shopping tomorrow. I JUST ran out of lemons, too, which I've been using. Thanks Green!!

Sure :)

also, littleConeHis, those are all antibacterial things for your cough and throat. If it's antibacterial infection, then, those things--lemon, ginger, licorice, also cinnamon, jalapenos, red pepper--help well for that , but, if it's a different kind of infection, then, it will take antibiotics from a doctor very likely.

Some natural antibiotics are:

sage (buy a spice jar of it from dollar store or safeway)
chicken soup (put the sage in the soup)
garlic (get some fresh French bread and put butter on it and then microwave garlic in the cloves so becomes soft)
Greens too, are good, like peppers and green and red lettuces (not iceberg or butter) and spinach.




I like natural healing methods, but, when I got sick in 2011, I went through all kinds of antibacterial remedies like the ones I said above and didn't help, I went through natural antibiotics too and still God was saying go to the doc. So, I did, and, two months later I got better. sick for 4 months total, was longest ever been sick like that and I praise God I have not been sick like that since :)