Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[GreenNnice]

The things of God, they defy understanding, littleChristone, so much happens in the world daily and it's good that much more that we stay our lives enrapt in Him

amen, noerror, God does have us with a conscience and His Spirit inside us will lead us to His good way of doing things, this is goodness, even through discipline, as, Scripture does tell us, 'He discplines His own.' The Lord leads. "...you follow Me."

yes, rache, give yourself breaks in life, the Lord leads, you' ve worked hard all summer, I gather , taking people's money , and, there is a saying that we should take care of ourselves. This is God's still small voice blessing us, be blessed, milady

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I've been dealing with a ear that's felt clogged up yet I am not having earwax come out, slight bit of weird, plugged up feeling in there, so, today, finally, I went to internet and found a way to figure out what's wrong. I took olive oil and hydrogen peroxide , couple drops of each one, into the ear and it bubbled for like 10 minutes in there and stopped so I stopped doing this treatment. But, when done, I still have the same plugged feeling in my ear.

I think i need to go get a bulb aspirator, something to shoot water into my ear after I put the oil and peroxide in there, that is the last part of the procedure and I used an eye dropper to squirt water in but I just don't think that's getting earwax ouutta there. The Lord leads. We will have to go and do that tomorrow if I do this treatment again and get no better results. Fortunately, thank you, Lord, that my ear feels fine, no pain, just a dull weird plugged feeling and when I snap my fingers against my ear I can hear fine. Any suggestions for removing ear wax, I'm all ears

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update on my mom, she went in for the CT scan results on Thursday and they were either going to continue doing the chemotherapy for her cancer or not, they would stop if it was not helping was the general prognosis. But, mom told me they are seeing need to continue the chemo. So, PTL one more time , thanks for your prayers all The Lord leads.

 

[Searching4Truth]

I wanted to kill my that so I wouldn't be a bother and a burden. I wanted to "die to myself" in a sense that I wouldn't be in the minds of others. But God placed me here for a "purpose."

What confuses me the most is why I'm here. I have no supernatural or spiritual ability to hear God. The best I can do is just witness what a beautifully broken world the Earth is. As much as I want to "leave" this place, I'm constantly bombarded by people who say I'm here for a reason. I just can't handle the idea that I am "special" because when I read the Bible, I'm told to love others beyond myself or as much as I love myself.

When I fail to be like Jesus, it either hurts me like hell internally, or I completely ignore God's word and continue my "sinful" march down whatever path I'm walking.

I got tired of bothering myself and others with my presence due to the confusing and conflicting thought patterns that the word and the world places before me...

 

[GreenNnice]

I wanted to kill my that so I wouldn't be a bother and a burden. I wanted to "die to myself" in a sense that I wouldn't be in the minds of others. But God placed me here for a "purpose."

What confuses me the most is why I'm here. I have no supernatural or spiritual ability to hear God. The best I can do is just witness what a beautifully broken world the Earth is. As much as I want to "leave" this place, I'm constantly bombarded by people who say I'm here for a reason. I just can't handle the idea that I am "special" because when I read the Bible, I'm told to love others beyond myself or as much as I love myself.

When I fail to be like Jesus, it either hurts me like hell internally, or I completely ignore God's word and continue my "sinful" march down whatever path I'm walking.

I got tired of bothering myself and others with my presence due to the confusing and conflicting thought patterns that the word and the world places before me...​

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This ^^^^ you do, S4T, is good design .

Your heart burns for Him, s4T, and, your abilities are many, we all are to , through faith, use the gifts He gives us.
And this layout of words on this web page is good, it may take time but you have faith and He might use you to make up some new Christian line of wears, I don't know, I'm just saying, like that cup you showed me. That's good design above, I took an Adobe Illustrator class and it's not easy to make black and white writing sing on the page simply; but, you do . Praise God, thank God (1 Thess. 5 ) for that gift there, and, you have more, including a genuine, seeking burning heart for Him, keep Him constantly on your mind, sing songs to Him , memorize words, you will begin to 'see' Him
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We all fail to be like Jesus, every day, but, Scripture tells us, 'His mercies are new every morning.'

So, don't sweat that, don't burden yourself with that thought, and, don't get rid of it yourself, go to Him, here's what Jesus says: "Come to me, all ye who are burdened, heavy laden, and, I will give you rest.'

 

[Searching4Truth]

Thank you, Green, and others for your concern, but I think I'm tired of feeling like this and I'm just going to try my best and just move on despite the way I currently feel. Lately, I have been putting WAAAY too much emphasis on myself and I think it's best to move on.

Seeing and "talking" to these counselors actually felt slightly productive, but I'm taking too much time away from my mother who was also sent out with me as an escort. I think it's just best for me to just suck it up and go..

 

[lil_christian]

12 year olds talkin' 'bout how they're chillin' with their bad a** friends...really?? You're 12, a few days away from 13. Do you REALLY need to use that language? I'm 16, about 3 months away from 17, and I have NEVER, and never WILL, use any sort of that kind of language. It just goes to show how immature you are. Stop it.

And yeah, I'm not very tolerant today. I'm a bit on the sensitive side. Don't come to me for a sympathy card right now, because you won't be getting one.

People that are alive are letting themselves deteriorate and live like they're gonna have forever to fix things, and there's a 16 month old in my church that just died in the middle of the night. Reality check - You only have a certain amount of time on this Earth and God only knows how much time you truly have. You better start thinking of your life as sacred, because it IS. Because God made it that way.

Start living like your life is something important and like you don't have much time left - because you don't know. Not saying don't have fun or excitement in your life. But don't bring in the wrong kind of fun and excitement in your life. Because in the end the wrong kind of fun and excitement stinks. And we know it.

 

[Searching4Truth]

Jesus, thank you for these graces and blessings. Oh, God, thank you! Please, grant me strength & courage to put my pride aside, and apologize to those that I've troubled with my issues..

 

[lil_christian]

How can it be that this situation just got sadder? *sigh* This makes me extremely worried.

 

[GreenNnice]

Jesus, thank you for these graces and blessings. Oh, God, thank you! Please, grant me strength & courage to put my pride aside, and apologize to those that I've troubled with my issues..

Amen. S4T, brother, we all struggle and we all have things of our past and if God wants you to go to someone(s) and tell them sorry for something, then, do it knowing He is with you.

One time I went out to five or six mothers that I kind of just quit talking too after I got out of college and things happened that kept me from seeing them, these mothers were of my friends growing up. So, what I did was go and get flowers for all of them in pots and I wrote out cards saying 'Happy Mother's Day' because that's the time of year it was. And, it was just good to do that.

That's one example, I've called friends up and said I was sorry for not being a very good friend , too.

I've apologized to both my mom and dad too at times in my life and said I wasn't being a very good son.

sister too, she's a little younger than me and I've apologized to her.

S4T, we all mess up, and, the Lord leads us to understand that it's OK, He still Loves us, and, His strength is in us and He is in us, leading us as we spiritedly go His way, worshiping Him in Spirit (Holy Spirit leading) and Truth (bible).

I pray this is understood well. Now, go give your mom a hug and tell her you love her, thanks for taking you to counseling, and, that you realize that God's mercy is so great, that where sin abounds grace abounds more, as Paul spoke.

Halelujah ! The peace that comes to us from our being in Him , keeping in relationship with Him, through His Word, through prayer, through thanksgiving, and, devotions and faith to know He's never going to leave us nor forsake us. God Loves us all, with a Love that is beyond words, it can only be described as as a Father who died for us when we were deserving of death and even crucified His Son up on a cross

God bless you, S4T, He is working on you mightily now, just keep on following Him, you are His workmanship, and, in this life, He still has 'great' work for you to do

 

[GreenNnice]

Jesus, thank you for these graces and blessings. Oh, God, thank you! Please, grant me strength & courage to put my pride aside, and apologize to those that I've troubled with my issues..

Awesome thought. Many never get here, it keeps them locked up inside, I want you to listen to this song, S4T, if you feel led to, the Lord leads, God bless you, brother, thanks for sharing your heart with so many in the world. God is well pleased with your faith to reach out to Him

My profile favorite verse is this, and, you're doing it, that's soo awesome, bro

For all those things hath mine hand made, and all those things have been, saith the LORD: but to this man will I look, even to him that is poor and of a contrite spirit, and trembleth at my word.




Forgiveness frees you, and, His strength to get on that cross, a a man, doing His Father's will, set you free long ago, S4T, it freed us all. And, we ALL needed freed

<span class="p">[video=youtube;JflRQLKjAQY]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JflRQLKjAQY[/video]

 

[Mammachickadee]

What is it about men that 1. makes them blame controversy with you on your pregnancy and "mood swings" and 2. bury themselves when they KNOW you are hurting from not really having any quality time with them?

 

[wwjd_kilden]

*stands in the corner and hands out hugs for those who want that, and coffee/ tea for those who want that*

 

[homwardbound]

I wanted to kill my that so I wouldn't be a bother and a burden. I wanted to "die to myself" in a sense that I wouldn't be in the minds of others. But God placed me here for a "purpose."

What confuses me the most is why I'm here. I have no supernatural or spiritual ability to hear God. The best I can do is just witness what a beautifully broken world the Earth is. As much as I want to "leave" this place, I'm constantly bombarded by people who say I'm here for a reason. I just can't handle the idea that I am "special" because when I read the Bible, I'm told to love others beyond myself or as much as I love myself.

When I fail to be like Jesus, it either hurts me like hell internally, or I completely ignore God's word and continue my "sinful" march down whatever path I'm walking.

I got tired of bothering myself and others with my presence due to the confusing and conflicting thought patterns that the word and the world places before me...

So by your words in trying to love as you are told to do.
Which Jesus Christ are you believing in? You say there is only one, shocked
I say is it the one that you are trying so hard to imitate?
Or the one that wants to live his life in you and most importantly through you?
You have been trying for so long and it is tearing you apart. so Again in place of imitation become a participator with God through Christ, letting God's love possess you as in 1 Cor. 13:4-13
For now you know you can't imitate Christ, and this is good, now you are ready for God's transformation through you
Romans 6,7, and 8 are 3 good chapters in explaining truth about the new life and the old life. The old life of imitation that you are ready to give up, So are you, only God knows, and is waiting patiently, for God will not interfere with our free wills.

 

[homwardbound]

Jesus, thank you for these graces and blessings. Oh, God, thank you! Please, grant me strength & courage to put my pride aside, and apologize to those that I've troubled with my issues..

You are troubled on every side and your emotion(s) have gotten in your way, do you see this?
Do Emotion(s) know any right or wrong? When you watch a movie, do you get emotionally involved? You know it is only a movie right? Then why do our emotions predictably respond to whatever is going on in the Movie? We know it is not real right?

So praying for you to see this, there is no way anyone can change their feelings about someone or something. when emotion has taken over we are convinced and react accordingly. I know you have tried to change how you feel and it has just gotten worse rather than better right?
Because no one can change how they feel and why is this?
Because we all are designed this way, that by whatever we think we feel. Emotions are feelings period!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they are a result of what one is thinking most about.
Try this, please, since you are depressed over the bad issues in your life.
Try right now to be angry, Without Angry Thoughts?
Is it possible to be angry without angry thoughts?
So what is the only way one can change their feelings? would it be change thought(s)
Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
Ephesians 4:23 and be renewed in the spirit of your mind

So do you see this as long as you have bad thoughts your emotion(s) will keep you trapped in worry and shame
May be start seeing things from God the Father's vantage point through Christ at the cross who died for you personally. Made you this by his death to give you new life in him by the Spirit of God in the resurrected Christ.
Colossians 1:22 in the body of his flesh through death, to present you holy and unblameable and unreproveable in his sight:
Romans 5:10 For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by his life.

 

[arwen83]

Had a tornado dream last night. There were dust devils as well. Apparently tornado dreams mean change, anxiety of upcoming stresses/events or turbulent relationships. But I am scared, yet drawn or fascinated by them in my dreams. Desiring to protect, keep safe from what is impending, but also it makes me feel alive watching them. Some are far away enough just to watch and still feel safe. Others are behind me, I try to outrun and take cover.

I think it is symbolic of my life right now. Trying to prepare myself for possible future stresses, trying to be one step ahead of financial stresses. Trying to fix my car before it breaks down. Trying to get control over my life. And seeing how I made it, I was prepared and it came and I overcame it. I was safe. And it makes me feel alive. The problem is that there is always another tornado. Maybe constantly outrunning them isn't the most productive. Hmm. Where's Freud when you need him?

 

[lil_christian]

[video]http://www.dogheirs.com/misst/posts/3830-naughty-siberian-husky-protests-going-to-bed-video[/video]

This is EXACTLY how Mocha will act when I tell him to do something. Huskies are so mouthy.

 

[AsifinPassing]

Had a tornado dream last night. There were dust devils as well. Apparently tornado dreams mean change, anxiety of upcoming stresses/events or turbulent relationships. But I am scared, yet drawn or fascinated by them in my dreams. Desiring to protect, keep safe from what is impending, but also it makes me feel alive watching them. Some are far away enough just to watch and still feel safe. Others are behind me, I try to outrun and take cover.

I think it is symbolic of my life right now. Trying to prepare myself for possible future stresses, trying to be one step ahead of financial stresses. Trying to fix my car before it breaks down. Trying to get control over my life. And seeing how I made it, I was prepared and it came and I overcame it. I was safe. And it makes me feel alive. The problem is that there is always another tornado. Maybe constantly outrunning them isn't the most productive. Hmm. Where's Freud when you need him?

[video=youtube;DLpUev1FvS0]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DLpUev1FvS0[/video]

 

[MissCris]

I've been feeling for a couple of months now like I am fighting against change. Like God is trying to do something with my life, and I am resisting. Change is hard. It's uncomfortable. But on the other hand, I don't think that I can keep on going the way I'm going right now to any positive end. I'm pretty sure I'm plodding along down the wrong path.

I'm standing in my own way, as I have so often done in the past.

I also had a dream that I got my hair cut off, and it was terrifying.

I think it's time to let go of some stuff.

 

[lil_christian]

Mom's home from surgery. This'll be a loooonnnggg week.

 

[overthechill]

God leaves us clues here and there. I went inside a QT and got a bottle of Evian water that I spent $1.79 on. I didn't feel too bad until I spelled it backwards.

 

[Immawildthing]

I'm not loving this....