I believe you are on the right track! You want to have the desire to study God's Word, pray and strengthen your relationship with Christ and for that alone, God is pleased. I have gone through the same struggles in the past. Holiness is a beautiful lifestyle and we have to live it ONE DAY AT A TIME. And I love that Jesus said, Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. Matt 11:29. It is a learning process, just like we have to learn everything else. The key for me was, not to give up, not to stop! Even when I did not wish to study or pray, I took time out to do it anyway, even if it was just for ten minutes a day (remember, it is the devil's goal to distract us and get us to stop trying). I did not know what to study, so I went to the Book of Psalms and read scriptures from there. I would pray for five minutes, and ask the Lord to give me a love for his Word and prayer...give me understanding of your Word, give me what to study...He will honor you and your prayers, but He does not want you to give in to those feelings the devil will bring. Bottom line, persistence (no matter what my feeling) and being consistent (everyday) paid off. I LOVE STUDYING the Word now, can't get enough. I love to pray now...I also fast more, which helps a great deal. Finally, being involved in Bible study at my church and finding others who love studying the Word helped me a great deal as well. Just don't stop doing it, no matter what and you will begin to strengthen your bond with Christ and the desire to study and pray will greatly increase! I am a witness.