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I don't know if this is the right place for this, if it's not please move it. I've recently come to Christ, I've accepted that He is the Son of God and the Son of Man and that He died for my sins and the sins of mankind, that he bore the full wrath of God for us to reconcile us with God, that He rose from the dead after three days and destroyed death and sin by doing so.
So why do I feel like I am still in sin? Why do I feel like I am trapped by temptation? If anything I feel worse than I did before. I also have doubts about my new faith. I've dabbled in Eastern religion, the Occult, New Age stuff, universalism and just about everything else looking for answers. I feel peace when I consider following Jesus, taking up my cross, literally, and going into dangerous places to spread the Gospel but then I have doubts. I've sold everything I own, given the money away (except for a few survival necessities and a bus ticket) to go and spread the Word.
But I don't understand why? I read my Bible almost daily, I try praying. God has done good things in my life but I still doubt, still give into temptation. I still lie and manipulate and tend to put things that I find fun and enjoyable before my duty to Christ. I want to change that but I don't know how.
I guess I'm just confused. I don't have a church. I'm a homeless man. I've been homeless for five years. Everything I've saved in that time (not much) has been given away to help people who helped me or other homeless people. Now I'm going to Alabama to try and help people in the inner city find God and come to Jesus.
Am I doing the right thing? I pray but I don't know how to interpret the answers.
So why do I feel like I am still in sin? Why do I feel like I am trapped by temptation? If anything I feel worse than I did before. I also have doubts about my new faith. I've dabbled in Eastern religion, the Occult, New Age stuff, universalism and just about everything else looking for answers. I feel peace when I consider following Jesus, taking up my cross, literally, and going into dangerous places to spread the Gospel but then I have doubts. I've sold everything I own, given the money away (except for a few survival necessities and a bus ticket) to go and spread the Word.
But I don't understand why? I read my Bible almost daily, I try praying. God has done good things in my life but I still doubt, still give into temptation. I still lie and manipulate and tend to put things that I find fun and enjoyable before my duty to Christ. I want to change that but I don't know how.
I guess I'm just confused. I don't have a church. I'm a homeless man. I've been homeless for five years. Everything I've saved in that time (not much) has been given away to help people who helped me or other homeless people. Now I'm going to Alabama to try and help people in the inner city find God and come to Jesus.
Am I doing the right thing? I pray but I don't know how to interpret the answers.