If I am convicted by the Holy Spirit, will I not then repent?
Sorry I was more of the calvinist persuasion as a believer so if one is saved then repentance naturally follows.
My conundrum is I have already gone through that, conviction, repentance, sanctification, etc. I simply question the reality of anything beyond what there is good evidence for. I live not much different now as when I was a christian, I could pray if I wanted to. I still get chills if I hear a worship song, the experiences do not go away, the belief that it is real is gone. I just think that its much more likely that "God" who we pray to and worship is an abstract concept in our heads.
Now back to my point that if before the Holy spirit convicted me then has God taken away my belief? or am I in sin as a backslidden christian? or was I never saved to begin with?
If the Bible is Word of God, then one of these must apply to me.
The first is not really backed by scripture.
The third may be true but then that means people cant trust their experiences as assurances of salvation.
The most probable is 2nd scenario, yet it has been a couple years now and no convictions or guilt about my disbelief.
Anyway my personal salvation was brought up so this is my reply to that.
It takes a very personal experience to go through conviction, repentance and sanctification. For the Lord Jesus to take you through all of that and then for you to deny it doesn't make a whole lot of sense.
If you can't trust your own experience I suppose you will fall for any doctrine that tickles your ears. Could you imagine if Paul didn't trust his experience with the Lord? I don't think there is any documentation in the bible for people who don't trust their own experiences.
If you've been saved then you know where that salvation came from and you would seek that source above everything else, especially when you think your faith is under attack. The very thing that caused you to come to Him in the first place.
It isn't intellectual mis-trust that would cause a person to backslide. It is only ignorance, pride and stubborn refusal to hear the truth that could cause it. Even then, once a person knows the Lord, to whom else would they go???
Something about you and your story doesn't quite mesh, does it?
Hebrews 11:6 But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.
If you were previously saved you should know this. You sought Him and He rewarded you. That is what Salvation is.
Romans 14:1 Him that is weak in the faith receive ye, but not to doubtful disputations.
There is no need to convince you. That is not my job. You know whose Job that is. If you don't recieve Him how could you possibly believe my words?
Romans 14:23 And he that doubteth is damned if he eat, because he eateth not of faith: for whatsoever is not of faith is sin.
If you don't have faith you don't have anything.
Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Have you read Hebrews 11?