I rebelled, fled in worldy ideals/images/idols like music, media, party and promiscuity for years to come. Creating my own God.
Untill finally God, the creator of universe, was sick and tired of waiting in vain for my love, devotion and everlasting praise He deserves above anything or anyone else.
Angry, dissapointed, sadned that i was giving all away so rapidly, amazing creation instead of creator itself (romans1:25), combined with major issues to commit to anyone or anything. Considering all that i wished to love would be destructed anyways, i myself became part of the destruction, so at least i would have power over something on earth, as an unconscious agent of lucifer. #ashamed to say
Shalom and Father Gods blessings for his unimaginable grace and infinite patience upon our lifes and descisions, how awful it must be seeing his creation, his children waist away, caught by the snares of his enemy that roams the surface of this earth, disconecting from his divinity within ourselves through the gift of his Spirit that is within us.
(1 Corinthians 6:19-20 19*Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20*you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.) how little did we knew...
... and thank God for the cross! In the name of Yeshua Hamassiach (Jesus the Messiah), amen