I got alot going on to much to post here and some of it is personal stuff and I just don't feel comfortable with posting personal stuff here. I need to talk with someone. I got lots of sisters in Christ at Church that I can talk to but they are not always available. And I know I can go to GOD anytime about anything but it does help though to talk to a person not that GOD is not helpful but well I dunno how to word this correctly I'm just gonna hope you all know what I mean. If I had the money I would go to a psychologist but I don't have the money for that. I just need to talk is all and have someone listen and pray for me. And someone who ya ok is not always available but who I can contact anytime weather by e-mail or yahoo messenger or facebook or something along those lines. Maybe what I want is terrible and horrible after all GOD is always there and I got my sisters in Christ at Church but I just feel I need extra help is all. Maybe that's the most terrible horrible thing. Believe me I've already bashed myself a zillion times for everything I feel and do and say cause I feel I can't do anything right. I just feel I need someone to talk to and help me sort myself out. So please pray that GOD lead me to someone who I can talk to more often and get in contact with alot and who can help me sort myself out and calm down.