God please erase me

domdom32 · Mar 12, 2014

next year 2015 i'm planning to commit it (if you know what i mean)
i want to tell god to erase me
im having a hard time dealing with life
i don't have a job,a girlfriend (torpe ako),im ugly, etc.
i don't want to be tested, i don't want to be punished in hell
i don't want to be a part of god's plans or life experiment
i just want to tell god that why he created me?
i don't want to feel pain,emotional pain,depressed,sad,lonely,bitter,jealousy,despair and more
i feel all of that since i was just a kid until now
i know i have the right to tell this to god because i don't ask to be created, i didn't ask for life, i don't want life.

JDecree · Mar 12, 2014

I don't know what to say but I can see you hurt very much...I know my words cant really fix things but I feel for you. Please dont take what I'm saying the wrong way.

domdom32 said:

He wont do that.

domdom32 said:

You don't have to be! Jesus provided the way out.

domdom32 said:

Sometimes we find ourselves in inescapable situations, this being one of them.

domdom32 said:

Everybody who has ever lived has felt the same. Some more than others. The good news is a time is coming where you can have what you desire, but you must hold on.

domdom32 said:

Please don't...as I read that I wanted to call the police or your family or SOMEBODY so they can stop you. Have you told anybody you know about this? I've dealt with thoughts of suicide to an extent...so much pain that you don't know what to do but hurt yourself. Think about that for a minute...hurting so much you are going to hurt yourself(and others)?

You are reaching out to us as strangers who cant help you like someone could who is near you. Please talk to someone, be it a friend, family, counsellor, pastor, ANYBODY. Just talking about it can be a relief.

There IS good in this life. I will ask the LORD to help you to take notice of it and I will pray for you my friend.

Don't leave us.

domdom32 · Mar 13, 2014

you don't need to call the police
as i said next year 2015 i will commit it
i have almost one year to think about it
when i tell this to my family or my friends
they will get mad at me and think of me as a loser
and as i said i don't want to feel pain from the others
i had enough

my_adonai_ · Mar 13, 2014

domdom32 said:

Life aint meant to be easy, we all face hardships

Do you have the qualifications for a job? If not get them. If you do, if being hired has not worked out for you well, then maybe try enterpreunership, start your own business, get the knowledge, research, and get a loan or something.
Girls will come when you are rich AND God fearing even if you are ugly.

Easyness just takes the fun out of life, see even un-believers face tests, so whether in CHRIST or not. TESTS MUST COME.!!
And well hell will not be a problem, the blood of JESUS cleanses you of all sin. Just ask Him to.

You already part of His plan, And you will have a hard time convincing him to change His mind. He very rarely does. He would not be GOD if He was not firm with His choices.
And plus He gives EVERY MAN or WOMAN an equal chance to Live for Him.

Sucks to feel all that, but what will GOD fix if we were perfect?
Healing is not for He that is whole, but HE THAT IS SICK..!!..
Am glad to say am sick, because thats when GOD comes to HEAL. HE loves to glorify HIMSELF.... and well HE loves us in HIS own way!!. We can not understand HIM at times, but heck if we did, we would disrespect Him and go like,GOD is predictable..

Gotta love the suspense and spotanteous, that gets you in AWE when HE delivers..

my_adonai_ · Mar 13, 2014

And you are not an Experiment. Experiments do not have choice.!!.

JesusLives · Mar 13, 2014

Dear Father In Heaven

Please rush to Domdom's aid Father, please put a band of angels around him to protect him from these thoughts that he is having. Please help him to seek help, to talk to You. Help him to pray, help him to talk to his pastor, a trusted friend or to get professional help. Father ease the pain that Domdom is going through if it is relationship problems or work or family problems Father you know where the source of pain is coming from. Please Help him to trust and lean on You. Thank You for hearing and answering this prayer. In Jesus name Amen.

I know that life puts a lot of pressure on young adults and that in certain cultures there seem to be additional pressures to succeed in life and always do your best. Please before you do anything harmful to yourself go and speak to someone that can be trusted or secretly go seek professional help. God loves you and He does not want you to try and go it alone through troubles and trials. Jesus promised to be with us to the end of the world so you are not alone. Please seek help.

JDecree · Mar 13, 2014

domdom32 said:

That isn't true. More likely they will feel for you and want to help in any way they can. It is clear you want help. Just reach out!

Please?

Servant_of_Christ · Mar 13, 2014

I am sorry you feel that way my brother. Know that God is very compassionate and sees you're pain, he cares for you very much.

Bloomingdaydreamer · Mar 14, 2014

I can relate to everything you just said. Actually I can check just about everything off on your list. But you don't let these things bring you down. I don't let those things destroy me. Sure there are days when it feels like the end. This will pass. God loves you too much. Your family loves you too much. Your spiritual brothers and sisters here love you too much.

Life is a beautiful thing. Past the pain there are greater things worth living for. Human beings can choose to be greater--greater than their struggles, their anguish. God gives us that strength and overwhelming love. He can fight your battles. Give you wisdom. You are not alone and you are not alone in what you feel. Please, if you want to talk or just vent you can message me. Be well, brother.

biscuit · Mar 14, 2014

domdom32 said:

[h=3]John 14:26-27[/h]New International Version (NIV)

[SUP]26 [/SUP]But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. [SUP]27 [/SUP]Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

ji · Mar 14, 2014

domdom32 said:

A girl friend wont make life.If you are that desperate to share your heart,get married.But dating and immoral sex wont help.
And God doesn't experiment with you,He molds you to become an over-comer despite your failures.Taste and see that god is Good.
i tried to end my life one time and was brought back to life by the Spirit of the Lord God Almighty to Serve His Purpose.
So when you think you are planning to do it,there is something in you that made you come here and share.Please don't end your life and see God in wrath in White throne Judgement,but give yourself to God all your burdens.He will teach you how to give your burdens to Christ.Pray to God(since you are not in a hurry to do anything stupid),to lead you to a Good Fellowship in Christ(yes,a good church to help you out through Prayer and interceding)
Here is my life testimony in brief it it helps.
i was born and brought up in strict Christian background.But never knew who Christ really was other than the silly misunderstanding that he was a terrorist who threatens people to listen to his hell stories.
my teenage and early 20's were full of confusions and agitations towards God and Church people,because i found both to be less compassionate.And soon pride began to lead me and i wanted to be big in world on my own.Just during that time,my elder bro had an accident and died.It shook me a lot.i wanted to leave Christianity and Church Fellowship altogether.But God brought me to Him truly with True Salvation experience through a Vision one early morning.The road was not easy afterwards,but God never let me go.And i found the Person that is always Compassionate and Unconditional in Loving,..in God.Through struggles i moved on without fainting because He carried me all through it.After some years my mom left this world in sleep.It was also a sudden death like my brother's.
And i went through a lot of mental depressions and other emotional prob because of not able to adjust with her loss.It took me to the point of suicide.But at the last moment when i was going to depart,God lifted me up from death by His Spirit.i saw my body transfigure into spiritual body,it was like made of many many diamonds that sparkled in light.More was the tender care by which i was lifted up.It was about 4 months later that i was made to realize it was the Spirit of the Lord that lifted me up,when in a Vision/Dream i was pointed to Ezekiel 2:1,2KJV.
Also then i really got confirmed that i have a Royal Calling from the Most High God Almighty.And Testifying is a part of it

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That's my life walking towards Christ in brief.
Do not hurry to finish it all thinking God is not with you.In time God will bring all the Blessings.
you need Christian Fellowship now..God will bring everything according to what is needed in the right time and best woman also for you...
Don't let times trick you to give up life.If you have suicidal tendencies,lie down on the floor and submit to God.Most probably that feeling will go after sometime,since its a demonic influence.Better than to take your life.
May God Bless You.

domdom32 · Mar 14, 2014

thanks guys
don't worry i'll think about it

Brighthouse · Mar 14, 2014

domdom32 The mindset of man or woman is based upon both feeling and emotion.The flesh does indeed speak,as we here all can testify to! Without Jesus all that you have spoken does truly come to pass,or will as your mind is set on such horror. It is indeed no fun to become a prisoner in ones own mind set.

Because it does not matter what others speak, or say to you,if you are set in jumping over a cliff, you first jumped it already in ones mindset. But there is a stop sign as well! Which is where you are now. Can someone talk me out of the horror I am in? Is there truly an escape?( 1 cor 13:10)

I am now 60 years of age brother,and what I have gone through in my lifetime, you would surly cry out loud at! In fact some things were so terrible and sad I even shed tears over them!! LOL There is a way out brother,I sure am not the best looking man God ever created!! I have never married or had children either! I never asked to be born either!

And I was so filled with self, there was no room for anyone anyway! Life was all about ME! My mind was set on this a very long time ago,and I went through so much as you are, because I had already figured out everyone to start with! This was my mindset bro!

Made so very low I could not have even crawled under a snake,I met a man filled with Jesus,I never saw such in my life,oh I heard people say they believed,but there life was no different then mine! This man not only speak his belief but lived it,and he lived it so strongly that Jesus in him changed my mindset upon both life and myself. I had to have what he had!!PEACE!!

One day in a mop closet in College the day came!( john 15:16-17) If you will allow me to change your mindset( col 3:2) I will not only give you what you truly need and want,but through you, my love will be poured out to others,so that I,YES ME!!! Jesus!! Can and will be thanked!

For it is my will for you to thank me for what I went through just so you can even complain!( 1 thess 5:18) My children have always complained and grumbled!example? sure ( exodus 14:11-12!!)Just one of so many examples! It is easy to feel sorry for one self, when ones mindset is all about ones self!! I know brother!!I was there just like you are now!

The stop sign you are at, is for you to consider,to be helped,yes brother to really and truly become restored both in your own mind and body as well! You have done everything you know of to help yourself,but you have failed,even as i did! You have blamed others for your misfortune and have had more excuses for yourself then carter has pills just like I did!

You are 22 now brother,time to become something you have always feared!!Yes brother even as I did!!A man!( 1 cor 13:11) Anger can be a true blessing to motivate us out of a bad mindset, so get mad!!By all means!! But get mad at your true enemy!!The devil!! Not God!

The nature of our enemy brother is two fold,to first rob you( john 10:10) then lie about what he took, and place the entire blame on you!!( john 8:44) or others! Let Jesus in bro!!He has been knocking upon you heart for so long now!! Let Jesus love you,as he did me bro!! It's good!! It really is good!

If you remove yourself from this world,others will also pay a price for your loss! Life is truly not all about us bro! Many Jesus would bring to you,to help even as Jesus helped us would be stopped,because now brother domdom32 is not present,but like Judas has betrayed me,as well as my beloved children! Jesus loves you bro!!

He always has,but one has to get into his words,to change there mindset! And when you do,you will know the love and peace,and yes even acceptance that you yourself have looked poorly on! You have great value brother!! It is like going into a store with all the money to buy whatever you wish to,but never go in!

And then complain on what you do not have? Consider Jesus is what the stop sign is saying brother! Under neath the stop sign it says in small print,do not look back! press forward!( gen 19:26,and luke 8:62) You wanted a sign from God,and here it is brother!! The same words Jesus himself gave me at my stop sign I pass along to you at yours!!( isaiah 41:9-13!!)

Go and be healed brother,go and let Jesus who healed your mindset heal others as well to his Glory! So that we truly understand what john 13:34 means!! TO LOVE we must first receive LOVE,then one can give it! My prayers are with you bro,and so is the very same love Jesus gave me, just to give to you today!! ( 1 john 4:7-19!!) We indeed can love brother now, because we have received Jesus love for ourselfs which has totally changed our own mindset!! amen! Your brother in Christ mark

JCluvsme · Mar 22, 2014

Life is difficult BRO..don't make it harder for yourself.\\

blink69nix0 · Apr 1, 2014

domdom32 said:

next year 2015 i'm planning to commit it (if you know what i mean)
you meant to say " suicidal ideation"? why? we all have tribulation in life, it's part of CHRISTIAN faith to endure everything. Just lean on to JESUS pray unceasingly please, don't let demons haunt your precious soul. Time is shorter than you may think...please

gee22 · Apr 17, 2014

Before doing anything that can harm you. Please think twice. You are created by God for a reason.

To be honest, i can somehow sympathize on you. I may not know who you are and what you've been through but I am telling you that in one part of my life, i also thought that way. However, i still tried to live no matter if all i do is just wake up in the morning, do nothing the whole day then sleep. The thing is, there are things happening in my life right now and actually even before (weeks/months after that stage) which made me feel so blessed. Actually, reading your post makes me realize a lot of things. I realized that i am not the only one who felt and thought about those things. I realized that if i gave up already on the time when i am at that stage, i would not have the chance to experience the happy and memorable things/experiences that i just had lately.

There are times when we feel worse and we tend to question God of our many "why"s... You can question but you should never give up coz sooner, you'll get the answers in those questions when you continue to fight and live your life. Continue to fight your everyday battle. I believe that God is with you!

maxwel · Apr 18, 2014

A very long time ago, while going through some personal tragedies, I felt suicidal for a very short time.

Then a realization hit me.

If I was to kill myself because I was frustrated and angry about the way GOD let my life turn out...
a millisecond after I died I'd be standing right in front of God, HAVING TO EXPLAIN MYSELF!
: )
Killing yourself doesn't get you away from your problems.
Killing yourself just puts you, instantly, in front of a very angry God, who is going to demand an explanation of why you just destroyed something that he created.

That is NOT going to be a good time.

Not a good plan at all.
: )
God Bless,
Max

hon2294 · Apr 19, 2014

many people have been there, and i also used to be so miserable too.but thank God He protected me and preserved me even at those times that I didnt know Him well yet, and I was so guilty that I just want to end my life that in fact Jesus died for me. how could I just take it too lightly? i thank the Lord for His grace and mercy. God loves you, hope you accept it. Prayingfor you kuya..

domdom32 · Jul 25, 2014

sorry guys but i can't take it anymore
i can't wait until next year
i follow all you advises (thanks for that)
but i'ts still a failure you know
i ask god, i did all the efforts but nothing happens
i really want to talk to god face to face,eye to eye
i want to know what he is doing to my life
why life is really hard for ME just for ME
i'm so sorry i had enough
thanks guys

secularhermit · Jul 25, 2014

I hope you never do that!

We, as ugly and unemployed men, still enjoying the chance GOD gave us to ENDURE this toiling existance. If you ve tried it, I hope your state will not be worst, otherwise, you would regret it, like Steve Reeves, for as an example. He was "rich", handsome, but was married to a woman he couldn t love better in a wheel chair... Think of that and try to thank GOD for the good things HE PROBABLY GAVE YOU, instead of looking at minor disavantages sir.

I hope you look at thepositive, rather than at the negative sides.

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