My biggest fear started when I listened to Hitler speak. I couldn't understand the words, altho it was translated. No one could hear him and not understand the threat of him. Afterwards, when people from Germany started arriving in the US, I would ask all about it, wondering how any one could let it happen. What they said frightened me, for I wondered how I would react if I lived there.
They said that the country couldn't really recover after WW1, and if you are hungry it makes you think in a different way.
I have been afraid of being swept up in a world so frightening that I could loose my Love of the Lord, that something besides God would come first.
I found that you really don't need to fear being alone. Now I have lost my ability to see, hear, and work well, and walking is tough, my family can't take time for me. I am absolutely alone, I and dial a ride. It is very freeing. I am free to do anything I want. No planning dinners, worrying about what to wear, and it makes no difference what I say, except to obey the Lord to be sure I only build others up and never do harm. I live in a separate world from all, and I can make it anything I want. My last girlfriend passed away two weeks ago, now I am the only one left except newer acquaintances.
There is true joy in a life alone. I still have my love for those I don't visit with. The memories of the times we had together are very precious. But there is joy in this, too.