All I want is to grow in my faith and become a better Christian, but I fear I'm regressing... I've been getting too quick to frustration when I don't understand things, and others have been quick to frustration with me when I don't understand them, either. I feel like I'm seeking Jesus and finding conflict. I'm not very smart when it comes to the Bible or Christianity. I was raised to look at both of them as a joke by overwhelmingly atheist family, yet I now know and believe the undeniable, unquestionable truth that is Christ. I've been doing my best to read and understand the Bible, though I feel as though I need prayer that God can give me the strength to keep the desire alive in me to further my faith and understanding, as frustration, confusion, and lack of the support of others has been taking quite a toll on me. I want to grow in Christ and be an example for my family of how amazing God is so that one day, maybe even just one of them may be saved. That would mean so much to me. It's just hard when I feel so alone on the road towards Christ.