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Lately, I have been have my own doubts in my Christian faith. Sometimes, I'm just tempted to leave it and not be apart any faith, and this has nothing to do with having anger and hostility towards God like a lot of Christians assume. I just question if the Bible is really authentic, when I wasn't there at the time of course, so how can I be so sure this is true? So many Christians think they're right and people of other beliefs are wrong when how can you be sure? I know some people who are intolerant of hearing other opinions and don't care to hear it because they're close minded. I do admit, the doubts do kind of concern me. I just feel like I'm going through all the Christian motions like going to church with my mom and attending a Christian school, without feeling it in my heart.
I'm forced to take Catholic lessons from my mom, because she wants me to ne confirmed into the Catholic faith, when I don't even consider myself Catholic. I don't even think I consider myself really Christian because of my doubts and no motivation to carry out my faith by reading the Bible and praying. I don't even do that, so I guess I'm not, or just a pretty bad Christian. I just feel like most churches, or the one I'm forced to go to with my mom, which happens to be Catholic, is so repetitive. I don't feel I learn anything new. Like I know God is the father and that Jesus died on the cross for our sins...it's just the same thing I hear over and over. I don't know what to believe anymore. I sometimes wonder if I would be happier just being agnostic or not believing in anything. Christians say that you can't be truly happy without God, when who are they to say that? how do they know for sure that people who don't believe in God are not truly happy? you can't just say that.
I'm just tired of worrying if I'm being a good enough Christian or not... I just don't care anymore. I just want to enjoy my life without having to worry about these things, and I'm not saying I want to be a "rebellious teen" and do the wrong thing either. However, what's keeping me from leaving the Christian faith is the huge fear of going to hell..I don't want to take the risk to end up in enternal damnation as you hear as a threat if you stop being a Christian.
I'm forced to take Catholic lessons from my mom, because she wants me to ne confirmed into the Catholic faith, when I don't even consider myself Catholic. I don't even think I consider myself really Christian because of my doubts and no motivation to carry out my faith by reading the Bible and praying. I don't even do that, so I guess I'm not, or just a pretty bad Christian. I just feel like most churches, or the one I'm forced to go to with my mom, which happens to be Catholic, is so repetitive. I don't feel I learn anything new. Like I know God is the father and that Jesus died on the cross for our sins...it's just the same thing I hear over and over. I don't know what to believe anymore. I sometimes wonder if I would be happier just being agnostic or not believing in anything. Christians say that you can't be truly happy without God, when who are they to say that? how do they know for sure that people who don't believe in God are not truly happy? you can't just say that.
I'm just tired of worrying if I'm being a good enough Christian or not... I just don't care anymore. I just want to enjoy my life without having to worry about these things, and I'm not saying I want to be a "rebellious teen" and do the wrong thing either. However, what's keeping me from leaving the Christian faith is the huge fear of going to hell..I don't want to take the risk to end up in enternal damnation as you hear as a threat if you stop being a Christian.