the truth is, the answer changes day by day.
i can't ever feel like a loser. i just don't, because i am unable to divorce myself from the knowledge that my life is richly blessed far beyond what i deserve.
in. so. many. ways.
that doesn't mean i don't have awareness of my bad days and times when life seems really unfair. i have things in my life that i'm not thrilled about.
but um, i can't seriously call myself a loser, not even on my worse day.
not knowing where i came from, and what God has done in my life. especially when it doesn't seem all THAT long ago that i was completely at the end of myself.
everything that has happened from that point forward has been a gift.
and the joy i feel in my heart isn't a temporary or fleeting condition.
maybe it's ok to be a "toilet seat" if you're incredibly joyful, in spite of yourself?