I'm sorry i did not read what you were saying fully. I was assuming you meant church as it is today is not working.
I try my best to live the lifestyle of Christianity by studying, praying, and meditating on His word not just in church but at home daily. My church, and the many egos in it, does not work for me as I always have to be more geared up for it than the world. I have heard many say the same about their place of worship. But I continue to go, as the Word is the Word and my focus is not on the people but on my Savior.
I am searching for another church home, one that is Christ focused and not one that feels they are entitled. Fellowship and correction however is important to the Body of Christ so I will continue at this one until God sees fit to place me in another. Who knows! Maybe He will transform the mind and hearts of my fellow members thus creating a "new" church home. Maybe it is even my own personal angst that disturbs my spirit. idk. I do pray that God searches my heart daily to fix whatever is not of Him. I pray the same for you.
Be blessed!
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I meant Church today...
Christians are not trying...
Christians are a NEW Creation.
They are made such by Christ, the HAND of GOD.
Natural people trying to be Spiritual people,
could suffer mental problems.
Please take your case to GOD and Christ.
If you ask for help to be the right child and none is given
how is Jesus going to Judge you.
Jesus is the Hand of GOD who makes the NEW people...
I sense that you are desiring the right things...
Blessings on you...