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Fenner

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I feel good! I feel proud of myself, and I'm not trying to be boastful, since January I have lost 25 pounds. I've been really patient with this process and not beating myself up if I've had a bad day. I've have changed my eating habits and I feel better. More energy, happier. I'm going to say this again, I feel good. I still have a way to go, but I like feeling like I have control over this. Some of you have read my problem with food addiction. I do OA on line and it's helped a lot. I talk to my brother in law that's been sober for 5 years, different drug, but he understand the addiction. He doesn't say, oh come on one won't hurt, because he knows one of something that I can't control could set me back.

I understand him, I know one drink could push him back 5 years. We support each other at events that have food and booze. It's so good to have someone supporting me.

I feel blessed that I have God to pray to when I feel weak. Thank you God for keeping me strong.
 
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No. I basically only listen to Christian worship that extends anywhere from instrumental to soft rock/alternative rock. I used to listen to metal and a lot of depressing music and yet wondered why I was battling depression. I don't think its the case for everyone, but for me, I am very sensitive to music.

Last night, I posted in another thread some songs that I thought depicted seasons of my life, and I posted some old music I listened to to portray my life 'before I got saved', but I regret that now. Listening to those songs again felt like rubbing sand paper on my ear drums.

I enjoy Christian artists such as United Pursuit, Jonathan and Melissa Helser, All Sons and Daughters, Brian and Ramey Whalen, almost all music that comes from Bethel church - Jeremy Riddle, Kim Walker-Smith, a sprinkle of Jesus Culture, Worship Central and Hillsong.
I'll have to check some of those out... :)

Thanks; blessings.
 

rachelsedge

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I'm so sorry, Rachel! That's awful. Be honest with your emotions but please don't let this experience harden your heart.
That was really not cool.... I'm sorry. People are doofs sometimes. You're awesome and someone is gonna be very blessed to have you one day. Hugggggsssss
I just read your original post then re-looked at this...I don't even know what to say. My heart broke when I read this. Wow.
At this point in time I don't think I'll tell her how it's made me feel. I told her I thought it was mean, she didn’t quite understand that I thought it was legitimately mean. So, I’m just going to drop it. Perhaps I would have taken it better had I not had only 4 hours of sleep and I’m exhausted and that’s never a good time for something to drop on me like that. I mean, my internal struggle is still happening, but I think I would be coping better if I had more sleep, ha. Thank you all. I know I’m overreacting, and I forgive her, but it woke up a beast in me that I had gotten to fall asleep for a while, there. Not even of anger of being lied to, but rather just...my worth and this build up of excitement and then yet again…rug pulled out from underneath. You'd think I'd learn by now not to let my emotions run away like that.

Man.... I'd be mad.

But hey remember you are pretty good looking.
I can always count on you to say this WBM. :p
 
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But Mooooooooooooooom! I don't WANNA go into work today!
 

lil_christian

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At this point in time I don't think I'll tell her how it's made me feel. I told her I thought it was mean, she didn’t quite understand that I thought it was legitimately mean. So, I’m just going to drop it. Perhaps I would have taken it better had I not had only 4 hours of sleep and I’m exhausted and that’s never a good time for something to drop on me like that. I mean, my internal struggle is still happening, but I think I would be coping better if I had more sleep, ha. Thank you all. I know I’m overreacting, and I forgive her, but it woke up a beast in me that I had gotten to fall asleep for a while, there. Not even of anger of being lied to, but rather just...my worth and this build up of excitement and then yet again…rug pulled out from underneath. You'd think I'd learn by now not to let my emotions run away like that.
I don't think you're overreacting at all, in my opinion (I'd probably be the same way). ♥ Emotions are very powerful, especially when it comes to past or present struggles that are brought to the surface. Sleep is important, and it will help you cope better, but I don't think this is overreacting on your part. If this was completely in your control, such as he may have said a passive hello and now you're head over heels and being all like "He loves me, he loves me not...HE LOVES ME!!" even though he didn't really do or say much, THEN finding out he's not actually interested...then that'd be letting your emotions run away. But your friend putting him up to that was NOT in your control. So yeah. I'd think you'd be acting within the realm of realistic emotions.

I'm SO glad you forgave her, though. You don't need the burden of not being forgiving.
 

Fenner

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Well, false alarm on the guy thing. My friend texted me, "No that it's not your birthday, I have a confession." I knew immediately what it was. The guy who clled and left the voice mail had the same area code as her and I thought that was funny but it's a bigger town she lives in and it's not that far away from Kansas City so I thought nothing of it, but as soon as she said that I connected the dots.

I think she had good intentions. Wanted me to get a call on my birthday from a cute guy. But it has opened an internal can of worms in me I know she did not anticipate. I'm upset. But I'll survive. I feel so stupid. This is why I am cynical, I knew things like this didn't happen.

I'm sorry Rachel, I know your friend didn't have bad intentions, but she wasn't thinking when she did that. Things like that can happen a nice cute guy calling you. I don't want to say anything cliche, but I am sorry.
 

homwardbound

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Sigh,....Yesterday I was so happy in God. I had great fellowship, all was going well and I felt quite loved.
Today, I am still loved, still quite blessed, but all I can see is the thing that didn't go exactly the way I'd like for it to.

Pray for me friends,..That I find my Joy in the Lord again today, and everyday, that I trust him to take care of me, That I don't let this thing get me down. Especially since I know it happened for the better. I'm just pouting, in a sense. I'm sad. Lame, right?

Sigh.
maybe it is to learn to be content in all things and count all things a joy regardless of how it turns out, you think, maybe?
 

homwardbound

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"God is the only comfort, He is also the supreme terror: the thing we most need and the thing we most want to hide from. He is our only possible ally, and we have made ourselves His enemies. Some people talk as if meeting the gaze of absolute goodness would be fun. They need to think again. They are still only playing with religion. Goodness is either the great safety or the great danger—according to the way you react to it. And we have reacted the wrong way."C.S. Lewis
i like this C.S. Lewis quote u quote
Try reading "Screwtape Letters" by CS Lewis, if you are ready to go deep and drown to self in seeing truth beyond measure
 

homwardbound

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It's frustrating and painful when someone you care a lot about is hurting, and you know it has something to do with you even if it's not your fault, and you can't....just...fix it, because they've shut you out.
You discern well, Sis. You see the Ecclesiastical view, a time for everything and you chose well, in at least bringing it out to deal with it forthrightly
Sometimes we need be quiet ans many times we are not, when we should be for the best of you and the other.
Keep learning and trusting no matter what the outcome appears to look like, you and Father know each other and that your love is real. So no need to worry, and just trust for it all to work for the good of God, which works for your best interest, no matter how it may appear to look like
 

homwardbound

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Do you like Christian hard rock, maybe? Disciple's Battle Lines, for example, is hard rock, with Biblical lyrics.

Blessings.
Well i grew up on Rock and roll. See it today as the Rock, Jesus the doesn't roll, just a little tid bit Brother
 

rachelsedge

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I did tell my friend how I felt and she felt bad. She didn't mean for it to hurt me and meant for it to be funny. I know she is being honest, I am not holding it against her. I told her that I still think it was a little mean, but a lot of it is just issues within myself that need resolved. Thank you all for the support, regardless. <3
 
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I did tell my friend how I felt and she felt bad. She didn't mean for it to hurt me and meant for it to be funny. I know she is being honest, I am not holding it against her. I told her that I still think it was a little mean, but a lot of it is just issues within myself that need resolved. Thank you all for the support, regardless. <3
well you always got me.
 

Fenner

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My son's friend is being a bully to him, but still inviting him on play dates. You know it's the last week of school can we just get through it without me having to be a psychologist and try to understand this kid?
 

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maybe it is to learn to be content in all things and count all things a joy regardless of how it turns out, you think, maybe?
This is something I've been working on for a while now honestly. I'm trying! And I'm being obedient for once. Things are starting to look up, even when they're down :)