Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[homwardbound]

@ugly - glad you're finally out! Get some sleep so you won't be so crabby towards me lol jk I know it's me too. The joy of being jacked up on steroids!

@everyone else...
I guess my love for the painting on the hand stems from my artistic side. I find beauty after a long hard day of working on a project and then seeing the stains on your and appreciating all the hard work. I also find fulfillment in it. But I will change the avatar back to help remind you of hope and of the great promise keeper. .

I dont one think my avatars are as depressing or as creepy as ugly's though

Just be you, that loving person you are made by God as you are, and let no one steal this from you as you know this truth

 

[lil_christian]

I despise anxiety. It needs to go jump in a lake. -_-

 

[kenthomas27]

How i will be starting each day now, well, the next two days in this pic.

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wow...............

 

[homwardbound]

Wow... You made that a whole lot deeper than I expected....
It wasn't really that bad of a fight, I don't think one could even consider it a full-on fight...

Yet sister, it can be, so i say this to be aware and so that you are prepared if that ever does take place? So your joy, peace and righteousness no matter what is at hand can't at any given moment taken away
I call this learning how to surf especially whenever waves get to tough to handle, and draw on God to be keep us quiet with God's peace and quietness, while in the midst of storms that do come and go as kenThomas just experienced

It is great to be married and love and care for one another, yet with these roses there are thorns.

 

[homwardbound]

I realize I've been sort of acting like a lunatic the last few days. I think I'm better now.

I've got to go sign a waiver today, stating that I want no part in the wrongful death lawsuit one of my older sisters is filing over my dad dying. I've been kind of avoiding it. Well, there's also been the issue of transportation, but if I'd really been trying, I could have found a way to get it done.
I really don't want any part in the lawsuit; I don't care about the money. I think I've been avoiding getting this done because in a weird way, it seemed like if I signed, then I was letting go of my dad for good. I know it makes no sense. It doesn't make sense to me. But by me not getting this done, I've been holding up the healing process for my sister who's filing the lawsuit. I think the whole thing is silly and spiteful, but this is her way of handling things and I've got to get out of her way and let her do it. And I've got to get out of my own way.

My favorite pair of capris have gotten a little snug. This is a tragedy. Now I'll have to like, exercise. On purpose.

I think wise decision

 

[rachelsedge]

Hopefully its that guy who she's hoping likes her

Ha, if only. Except you're right...that'd be my reaction.

Unrelated but kind of related, I'm considering moving to a different place. I know my boss would understand. I know my friends here would, too. I'm not sure I could actually leave at this point, though, because of my parents, my parents' church that I help with, and my friends here. It reminds me of some song lyrics (by Breaking Benjamin), "I cannot hold on, I will not let go."

And yet, I feel that my time to move on is coming soon, unless something drastically changes this summer.

 

[homwardbound]

I despise anxiety. It needs to go jump in a lake. -_-

I have said much to you little ssiter, and praying for you as i know not how you will come through, but I trust that you will.
That is the thief, that comes to steal, kill and destroy, by thoughts it manifests, change thoughts and it goes away, stay on the emotion of anxiety produced from thought and it gets worse and worse and worse from trying to change how one feels it manifests worse.
Change your thoughts and it has no more control. why? At first it does and is why I see why God said after one believes do this:

Romans 12:2
Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but be a new and different person with a fresh newness in all you do and think. Then you will learn from your own experience how his ways will really satisfy you.

So just to start with, how does God view, see you through Son?

perfect, even though we know we are not, is irt true or n ot from God's sight through Son?

See emotions already began the change and are no loinger leading to steal, kill and destroy, yeh or neigh?
So be wise as the serpent yet harmlees as a dove,
Emotions were always meant to be the result in love, peace and quietness, never meant to lead, and this lead started in Adam and Eve, their eyes were opened and they knew they were naked and ran away to hide, seeing their fate as to whyat was to be, death and kneww God to not be liar, so trhhey hid

Yet God from that vewry same day had Mercy on them and blood was shed for covering them and Chirst is the last covering it is done, so you can by Faith walk in truith and emotions follows in love joy, peace, righteousness, God's not ours and quietness that passess all understandiing. Wheer ewe can be content in all trhings and led righteously by God
Anyway, hope you and all get it, as I think you do and are, God is love tom you all, and not ceondemnation, as evil tries to decieve us to think that God is a tyrant if you do not do this or that.

If you do not want me to say anything to you while in grief, please just say so, and I will, if you directly say to,
My sorries again for your loss Sister

 

[Grace-Like-Rain]

I feel so disconnected.

Come chat with us one night, Searching.

 

[tourist]

Ha, if only. Except you're right...that'd be my reaction.

Unrelated but kind of related, I'm considering moving to a different place. I know my boss would understand. I know my friends here would, too. I'm not sure I could actually leave at this point, though, because of my parents, my parents' church that I help with, and my friends here. It reminds me of some song lyrics (by Breaking Benjamin), "I cannot hold on, I will not let go."

And yet, I feel that my time to move on is coming soon, unless something drastically changes this summer.

I am moving on myself. Have a safe journey.

 

[wisebeardman]

Come chat with us one night, Searching.

ITS A TRAP!

 

[Immawildthing]

Yet sister, it can be, so i say this to be aware and so that you are prepared if that ever does take place? So your joy, peace and righteousness no matter what is at hand can't at any given moment taken away
I call this learning how to surf especially whenever waves get to tough to handle, and draw on God to be keep us quiet with God's peace and quietness, while in the midst of storms that do come and go as kenThomas just experienced

It is great to be married and love and care for one another, yet with these roses there are thorns.

I know well get into fights eventually, but seriously, I've tried to fight with him, just to see what he'd do, and he won't argue with me. It's almost frustrating. None of his friends have ever seen him mad, he doesn't even know what he's like when he's mad...

 

[MissCris]

I have a heck of a lot of junk. Knick knacks, books, movies... Mostly gifts from my ex and his mom, most of which I don't even really like much. Trying to decide if getting rid of them would be a jerk-face thing to do or not. Hmm.

 

[Ugly]

I have a heck of a lot of junk. Knick knacks, books, movies... Mostly gifts from my ex and his mom, most of which I don't even really like much. Trying to decide if getting rid of them would be a jerk-face thing to do or not. Hmm.

Clearing the junk out of you present, that you brought from your past is always a good thing. Focus on your future and your new life and leave the old behind.

I know you didn't mean it that way, but it applies to cluttery knick knacks and your life, so win-win!

 

[Pipp]

I have a heck of a lot of junk. Knick knacks, books, movies... Mostly gifts from my ex and his mom, most of which I don't even really like much. Trying to decide if getting rid of them would be a jerk-face thing to do or not. Hmm.

Toss it out..it'll male you feel better

 

[wisebeardman]

I have a heck of a lot of junk. Knick knacks, books, movies... Mostly gifts from my ex and his mom, most of which I don't even really like much. Trying to decide if getting rid of them would be a jerk-face thing to do or not. Hmm.

sell it off.. you get rid of it, and get some cash.

 

[Ugly]

Toss it out..it'll male you feel better

Not female her feel better?

 

[Ugly]

Much better view today!

 

[Fenner]

That is a nice view Ugly. I hope you're having a feeling good day.

 

[Fenner]

This morning I had to have a medical test done, nothing big and everything's fine, just stomach stuff, anyhow they sedate me and I'm out. My kids went to my Mother In Laws, my Daughter asked me what was going to happen at the hospital, I told her they'd put me to sleep. Bad wording on my part, we've had to put 3 cats to "sleep" in the last 2 years. Her eyes got so big and welled up with tears. I had to explain that they'd wake me up. Poor kid, dumb Mom.

 

[Ugly]

That is a nice view Ugly. I hope you're having a feeling good day.

Better than expected. Except the pharmacy taking hours to get my meds ready. I should be done and gone already, but still here.