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Hello, I am quite new here. Let me first start of by introducing myself. My name is John and I'm 22 years old. I live in Laredo, Tx and I work full time for a Doctor and go to school full time. I joined CC in hopes of finding peace and great new people who will not judge me for who I am or what I believe in.
I am asking of you to please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I'm going through a very difficult time in my life right now. So many things seem to be going wrong and everything has just crashed down upon me and it feels like I'm carrying a 1 ton brick on my shoulders and on my heart. There is just so much stress and so much pressure for me to succeed in school and to begin my career so I can have a sane, and healthy lifestyle and then the pressures at work are starting to become too much. I find myself becoming irritable and most little things can hurt my feelings. I'm struggling to make ends meet when it comes to bills and the money to pay them...it's all got me so stressed. To top it off, the girl who I am madly in love with left me this past Thursday and now I feel completely lost without her. I never did mention my problems too much to her to where she grew tired and I always tried my best to do everything and anything to keep her happy. Yet in the end, she walked away from me saying that she didn't know what she wanted after telling me that she would never leave me...what the hell is that!?!? I got down on my knees bawling my eyes out and yet she just turned her back on me and left...
She said she wants to nothing to do with me and that its over between us. She told me to just leave her alone permanently. She won't call or return texts and I don't know what to do!!! I'm totally heartbroken.
No joke, I didn't want to live to see what the next day had to bring. I've had thoughts of suicide but I'm far too selfish to ever do anything like that to myself. Yet, I hopped onto the motorcycle that day and gunned it down the highway with no regard for my life or anyone elses....just hoping that MAYBE I would crash and die. Please keep me in your prayers...I would appreciate it so much!!
GOD BLESS EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU
I am asking of you to please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I'm going through a very difficult time in my life right now. So many things seem to be going wrong and everything has just crashed down upon me and it feels like I'm carrying a 1 ton brick on my shoulders and on my heart. There is just so much stress and so much pressure for me to succeed in school and to begin my career so I can have a sane, and healthy lifestyle and then the pressures at work are starting to become too much. I find myself becoming irritable and most little things can hurt my feelings. I'm struggling to make ends meet when it comes to bills and the money to pay them...it's all got me so stressed. To top it off, the girl who I am madly in love with left me this past Thursday and now I feel completely lost without her. I never did mention my problems too much to her to where she grew tired and I always tried my best to do everything and anything to keep her happy. Yet in the end, she walked away from me saying that she didn't know what she wanted after telling me that she would never leave me...what the hell is that!?!? I got down on my knees bawling my eyes out and yet she just turned her back on me and left...
She said she wants to nothing to do with me and that its over between us. She told me to just leave her alone permanently. She won't call or return texts and I don't know what to do!!! I'm totally heartbroken.
No joke, I didn't want to live to see what the next day had to bring. I've had thoughts of suicide but I'm far too selfish to ever do anything like that to myself. Yet, I hopped onto the motorcycle that day and gunned it down the highway with no regard for my life or anyone elses....just hoping that MAYBE I would crash and die. Please keep me in your prayers...I would appreciate it so much!!
GOD BLESS EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU
